• A  blog is a personal journal of your daily life as a stroke survivor or stroke caregiver.  Surprisingly, countless members have called it therapeautic to write down their thoughts and to vent their frustrations.  You can make it private, just for your eyes or public and share your personal thoughts with your friends.  Why not try it, create your blog and start writing and see if it helps you.  

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  • swilkinson

    Living on angel time.

    By swilkinson

    I went to see the neurosurgeon on Tuesday. I was interviewed by a young Asian associate doctor and sent for a 3D MRI and angiogram, a brand new way of showing  the blood supply within the brain. The results were given to me by the associate and then I saw the specialist. It appears the aneurysm is larger and deeper than previously thought but at my age they are not going to operate as it would mean a full brain surgery. Coiling, one method of dealing with an aneurysm, is not an option. I think I
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kimberly9's Blog

my mother annoys me too

i love my mother with ALL my heart. however, she has graduated to the "annoying" category too. she's always been the kind to get panicky. but the past year since my stroke has put her into overtime!!! she leaves all of these panic stricken messages if i don't call her back IMMEDIATELY, or if i don't answer the phone.   two weeks ago i decided to sleep all day saturday. the husband was out of town and the step daughter was visiting her mother ( who is in prison). i turned the phone off. abou
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kimberly9's Blog

every one annoys me

at first when he started annoying me ( back in 1995) i have thought on and off again about divorce. a lot more recently since my stroke. i'm no stranger to divorce. 8 years the first time( to an abusive sports freak), less than a year the second time ( to a REAL freak) and 10 years on the 20th of this month to, well, just a plain out irritating and annoying person!!!! i'm sure many people wonder if all of this divorce is MY fault. i have really pondered that question and the answer is a flat
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kimberly9's Blog

annoying father

i work for my dad's company so i see him every day. i swear to god that since he has gotten older he has turned into one of the LAZIEST people in the world!!! if i didn't have my mother to talk to about him ( you have to be blood related or married to him to REALLY appreciate these comments) i would go crazy!!! i answered the phone and the lady asked for HIM. then i went outside to smoke and he came out there and told me i had a phone call. it was that SAME woman. all she wanted was something e
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kimberly9's Blog

annoying co-workers!!!!!!!

jean thinks i need to keep up a blog i'm sure because my posts are so LOOOOONNG!!!!!!! i will admit that i have a tendency to go on & on & on & on ! anyway, since i had my stroke i just keep getting madder. i don't know if it is ME that is getting more annoyed, or that other people are becoming MORE annoying!!!!   for instance, it annoys me the way our telephones ring here at the office. it's this high pitched wooonnnggg. that in itself is annoying enough. however, to add spark
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kimberly9's Blog

my humorous outlook!!!

first of all, let me say that i think i am a grumpy, cynical, pessimistic, and suspicious person by nature. however, these traits have been intensified since i had my stroke. on the flip side, i can find humor in JUST about everything, no matter how dismal and this goes for death issues. of course i am not callous enough to feel or act innappropriately "silly" when someone i love dies, but, somehow, when enough time passes, if nothing else, i remember, write down and talk about funny things th
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cyndip's Blog

Today

I woke up this morning and said to myself "today is the first day of your life". Wow, I have had a lot of those lately. I broke down last night, both emotionly and mentally. I feel much better this morning. It's funny how a little crying and yelling can make you feel better. I never have anything profound to blog about, but it makes me think when I go back and read it.   I thought alot about the meaning of life lately. What is life really? It is something we all have to do. God has hi
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Charles' Blog

Technology - Gotta love it

I awoke this morning at 3:30am Eastern Time. I don't know why but I thought I would get something useful done.   I don't know if I have told you all before but my wife and I are in the process of setting up a home based business. There are so many things to take care of that do not affect most normal people. Things like setting up our business so we can take credit cards, setting up business phone and internet services, getting business cards printed as needed, advertising, figuring out ho
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Charles' Blog

Yesterday

I had another spell yesterday afternoon about 4:00pm. What I mean by spell is if the symptoms were worse, they would require Emergency Room attention. I more than likely did experience another TIA albeit minor.   It wasn't nearly as bad as the previous day (Wednesday) thank goodness. Also, Wednesday was primarily a fatigue attack with brain fog thrown in for good measure.   The symptoms I experienced yesterday afternoon were a slight numbness in my face, brain fog, and fatigue.   I n
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cyndip's Blog

Nothing really amazing

Ok so I have had time and read my past blogs. I am starting to sound whiny and depressed. I guess I have a lot on my mind. I have a past problem that is haunting me right now, as it does every once in awhile. Not really a problem or really haunting me, just on my mind a lot lately. Sometimes we make mistakes in life. Not that it was a mistake, it just happened.   Anyway, that's in the past and I need to concentrate on the future. I have been so self absorbed and depressed, that I for
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ctaylor2's Blog

New Snow

It snowed last night and now everything appears as new it only lasts for hours but I still like the effect. All the white so clean and the way it muffles sounds so that everything sounds far away. The dark man was in a much better mood this morning, I
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Janice

Whining again

Last night I just about threw a major hissy fit. Every Monday and Wednesday I descend into a deep depression because I know that on Tuesday and Thursday, I am forced to spend time with my neighbor lady...she drives me nuts She has no friends and has attached herself to me much like a parasite. I can't do anything without her attaching herself to me and I am force to bring her along. I try to explain to my hubby how my 'having' to relate to Helen has affected me and words excape me... h
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hostpam's Blog

Soundtrack to my life

There are times as I've said before, where music plays an important role in my daily life. Sometimes when I'm working something out, I replay the scene over and over in my head and I wonder what music would do well playing over my thoughts, today I think the GooGoo Dolls would be the music of choice. Especially the song from the movie "City of Angels".... "I don't want the world to see me, cause I don't think that they'd understand." "When everything feels like a movie, you bleed just to know
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cyndip's Blog

Rejection

I never felt so much rejection in my life. I don't ask for much and I give everything I have emotionly and physically. My husband rejects every idea I have regarding my life. I can't get a job due to all the rejection that I get. My dad, he rejects me in every way he can (dad, i lost 7 pounds..too bad you'll gain it all back). My mom rejects me when she doesn't feel good. I am not use to rejection. I have always done anything and everything I can for everyone. It use to be ok. I got pra
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Charles' Blog

I am a different person now

I am human again. You say how our super hero really had a tough time today. You also see how he perservered and finally beat back the fatigue attack he had earlier.   Let's see what tomorrow brings.   BRING IT ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   Have a good night.   Charles Ramsey
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Janice

continued listing of thoughts

4) I have serious questions as to my worth and purpose. a) Stroke related deficiencies b) Age... mid life crisis... c) what is my identity anymore?
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Janice

Initial thoughts

I have so many issues going on in my life I'm confused and discouraged.   1)I need to lose weight a)tired of fat ass clothes...ugly fashions,blubber bulging out over pants, can't wear nice clothes purchased when thin. b)difficulty putting on shoes and tying them...get out of breath, c)I look like a cow d) want my hubby to be happy to be seen with me in public e)Fat people are looked down on by most of public as inferior and/or stupid   2)What to do during
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Charles' Blog

What a difference a couple of hours makes

I feel like I have been rode hard and hung up wet. Two hours ago, I had a severe fatigue attack.   Now, I think I will live.   This is the first time I have felt this way without having a TIA or stroke. I had the dizziness, extreme fatigue, slight case of brain fog, chest discomfort (I talked about that earlier). In other words, I wanted to do an imitation of the two cats that are on the love seat recliner with me right now.   You know, ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!   I did sleep som
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Charles' Blog

My mind is a vegetable right now

I am having a bad time now. Two hours ago, I was feeling fine.   About 12:30pm, I started experiencing discomfort in my chest. Thank goodness our super hero was wearing his heart monitor and recorded his heart. I called the nice folks at Life Watch, transmitted the recording over the phone, they interpreted the converted EKG, and told me that I did not go to the Emergency Room.   Ain't technology wonderful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   I am sitting here on the sofa with negative energy typ
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Charles' Blog

Things that make you say Hmmmmm..

I received some interesting news yesterday. As you are aware from reading posts on the board as well as the previous entries in this Blog, Everything they have checked has been normal with the exception of High Blood Pressure which was corrected in early December. (Subsequent to that change, I had a TIA 1/11/05 where my blood pressure was normal.)   The news I received was regarding my stress test I took on January 20. Amazingly enough, the results were good.   We celebrated this news b
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vmoran's Blog

a child died last night

A freshman in Ryan's class died last night. He shot himself. He was a good kid, the Star of the varsity basketball team, and the only freshman on it. He didn't do drugs. He didn't hang out with the bad kids. He wasn't a wannabe ganster. He got decent grades. He was in a couple of Ryan's classes but, they weren't close friends.   A child died last night, and the community is in mourning.   And all I can think of is, why didn't anyone know this child needed help. He was only 14 years ol
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julie44's Blog

I can do this - just keep trying ODAT

Just found an encouraging message from Pam (thank you).. like she said - I am doing OK. Some days I feel as though I am going back wards, but if I stop and check I have come such a long way, and continuing to improve. Checking into StrokeNet helps so much... makes me realize that I am not alone in my ups and downs.   Very hot today, 35deg C, so I'm staying indoors out of the heat, will take my dog Sallie out for a walk after it has cooled down. Maybe Tony will come with us, then we could g
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Bil's Blog

Losing My Mind

The last few weeks I have been depreesed.   What is life? Having problems in the house - a nice person who had to get into a hospital - heart attackd and a rehab and she is back. Meanwhile, I hate my gums to pa y $1,500 to keep my teeth, and worse, I had no thoughts. I love to write but I can't anymore. Hate having no thoughts, even to sleep.   Even my aphasia is gettting worse. Hard to think of words. I am stupid again?   Is it the heavy snow which I love to watch? Or is
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ctaylor2's Blog

Day 1 of my blog

I used to think of myself as being very computer literate but this blog thing has really humbled me and that's always a good think for me, you see I was a fairly conceited self centered person before that tiny little clot re-arainaged my brain. To hear my friends tell it, I'm a much better person post stroke than before, boy that really makes me feel good. I spent most of this morning getting ready to begin teaching next week oh joy of joys. Yeah I really love it. but at least I'm getting more a
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