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Hi Everyone

I am not "much" of a blogger. but I want to let people/friends know what has been happening in my life.. I had been on staff here for around 6 years I think. started as a chat host. So Last year I resigned, My husband had melanoma 7 years ago. He had it removed, and the surgeon was sure he had " removed all of it" John never missed his check up's. He was a Vet, so we went to Seattle a little over 80 miles south. In November he started to have some back pain. With his job and we have 5 acres

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Memories

Well 9 years as a survivor, I somettimes miss "what I used to have" but I am extremely grateful of what i do have.. I am much better off than many surviors in what I was able to regain.   I miss John so much, I can't even begin to express it here. Without his support and "pushing" I am sure I woulld not have regained this much.. "The winde beneth my wings" was one of our favorite songs. July 28th was 13 months.... It was Saturday, and I had been reading on a "grief" site about some people

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I'm Home

Hi Everyone, I am home, after my visit to Arizona. My mother in law is doing very well, she has been tolerating the chemo much better than anyone expected. She had some tests last week, and should get the test results today. The Dr is extremely happy that she has tolerated the 3 sets of (3 each set) of chemo. He has decided to do a couple more.   The morning I left we had an inch of snow on our porch and I arrived at 7 pm to around 84*. I actually did much better than I thought with

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Dusting off the cob webs

Well it has been quite awhile since I have made an entry... for sometime my Blog would end up in cyber space...   This is into my 6th yr post stroke.. I almost forgot the date of it this year. I can say so far this is my best year so far. We have had a lot to go thru this past year. John's mom had lung cancer, went through chemo... and lost the fight . She passed away early March.. 4 of the 5 kids were with her as well as grandchildren, her sister and other family members. She had hosp

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Some thought on Grief

Hi Everyone, I have not blogged for quite awhile. John passed away 6/28/11. The melanoma he had removed 7 yrs ago Came back Full force. He was diagnosed 4/27/11.... Little did I know when we walked out the door on the 27th... would be his last time walking out of the house. My stroke took a back burner, rarely even though about it. I am a 9 yr survivor, and a very Lucky one, my deficits are mainly those you can not see. My left side can be a bit clumsy and I have a slight limp. My impairmen

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Ending up at ER on Thursday

Last Wednesday I went to pick up my prescriptions. There was a display of Glucosamine with MSM. John had knee surgery and has some arthritis, and I do to along with some Central Pain Syndrome. I thought, well I will buy a bottle for us, fall is coming and maybe this will help us with some of our aches and pains.   I opened the bottle Wednesday and we each took one with dinner.. The dose is 2 tablets a day. I took the second one Thursday morning around 11 am. about 45 minutes later, my h

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Looking back **Looking forward

I have been trying to get to my Blog for weeks... (achoo achoo, it's a bit dusty) I had some :what I thought were good ideas. Of course I was driving in the car, or not able to write my thoughts down...   Today is the 4th anniversary of when stroke entered my life. well "our" lives. I refuse to call it MY .. it is something that happened, like breaking your leg or whatever.... I will NOT let it control me or take over my life.   I have been looking back, and also reading Newbie's posts

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Changes

Changes ~~ 5 years have gone by.   It is 5 years now since my life dramatically changed. So much has happened in that time.. Emotions , Re-Learning, Re-Evaluating .... From barely walking.. and now I have a slight limp... I still can't figure out how to run... Yes sometimes I would like to run.. ok... I know HOW old I am.. I am not talking long distance 5 K's here. I have a very active 5 yr old grandson, and playing some badminton or softball....... oh well, adjustment and the little one

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NOT A GOOD DAY

I have just lost my best friend.. I mentioned a few weeks ago my best friend..through thick n thin was diagnosed with a very aggressive cancer. She was undergoing radiation treatment and was going to start chemo in a week or so................I got a phone call this am. She passed away last night at 9:30pm   I will be leaving Saturday to fly back for her services and returning the following Saturday. I have not been back to Cleveland for about 16 years.   I got a wonderful reservation c

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Meeting another member

:bouncing_off_wall: :bouncing_off_wall: I am so excited. I had the pleasure of meeting another of our "family" I was in chat one evening and met Lyn.   She is from Surrey, British Columbia. I live in the northwest corner of Washington state. The Canadian border is only about 30 minutes from Bellingham. Lyn and I contacted each other. Made a date for her to come down. She drove down with her CG Theresa on Thursday. We met at Denny's.   We had a wonderful visit. We felt like w

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YIKES

I have colored my hair off n on for years. I was tow head blonde when I was young, and it got darker as I got older.   A color I would describe as "MOUSE" the last few years it seems when I color, no matter if I use Ash it still brings out golden highlights and it tends to be more of a "strawberry" blonde. I have let it be mouse with gray for well over a year.   Well I don't know why, but I decided to "brighten" it up the other day.. I had color in the cabinet. I decided to leave

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Grandson's School report

My grandson Bill chose to do his heath report on strokes . Here is his report, he has also attached some of the information pages from our "home page" here on site.   Bill is 13 soon to be 14 he is in 8th grade.       Bill Health report   Strokes   A stroke is also know as a cerebrovascular accident or CVA it is a neurological injury in which the blood supply is stopped. My Grandmother is one of millions of people that lives have been effected by this horrible injury. She

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I HATE AUGUST

well I have never liked August very well, my 6 yr old son passed away from neuroblastoma on August 8th after fighting a courageous battle. My best friend was visiting me in August and he son commited suicide on August 4th. My friend Carol and I met whenour sons were in kindergarden. We hit it off right away..we both had 2 kids, our two oldest in kindergarden, then my daugter and she had another son a little younger than my daughter. We became very close and did everything together. People

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Thirty Days

I've started a couple Blogs.. but didn't finish them.   John will be home Wed night. He has been gone 10 days. I wanted to do some Spring cleaning and get a few things done. That hasn't happened. I am trying to keep up with what I can....   The goats are fed every morning, I have had to cover at the shop for a couple "emergiencies" they were only a few hors long, I have been going to the shop to do check deposits.. get stuff for the bookkeeper.. just try to keep a sense of unity, et

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HO HO HO MERRY CHRISTMAS

:santasmiley: I like Ann.. needed a bit of a jump start to find the Christmas Spirit. I was derading some of the shopping...alone.   John hates shopping...unless of course it is tools or tractors. Tracy came over one day.. and we got part of it done. I went out one day and got a few things. I then informed John... there is a little more to finish.. YOU WILL GO WITH ME AND HELP ME FINISH. (LOL)   He looked and said your getting a little bossy aren't you and laughed.... I said Yep..

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CRAZY

Well I guess John & I are a little "crazy" we have just added another four legged member to our family. I have a girlfriend that has a lot of health issues and 3 children. She adopted this little toy fox terrier 2 yrs. ago. She had some issues when Terri got her, she was not housebroken and she is hyper....Terii has not housetrained her and her husband is getting quite upset, so she has been tied out side or kenneled quite a bit. She said her husband is getting frustrated with the dog

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Whewh am I tired.

My daughter, Tracy and family moved 4 hrs away after school was out in June. Tracy's Dr is still here. She had an appointmentlast week and she was also have stomach pains. He sent her for an Ultrasound and they found gall stones. She had an appoiintment Thursday for a HIDA scan. They found the gall bladder was not working. We saw the surgeon Friday and surgery was scheduled for 6 am today.   She has stayed since last Wednesday night, incase she got another bad attack, we could take her t

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Random Thoughts

Well 2008 is here. Many of us are hoping for a better year.... more progress, financial stability. weight loss... or whatever. A New Year brining in new Hope.   I have been reading posts, Blogs. Many of us have gone thru some downs. We know we will get back up. Everyone has down days. Winter in whatever climate tends to be gray and dreary, wet and windy. Expectations of Christmas.. and picking the gift to put a smile on a Loved ones face.   Survivors ... is acceptance ever comple

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Glad Friday is in a few hours..

Well it has been a bit challenging the last couple weeks. First an ear infection that tried to knock me on my keister... literally. My balance is not always 100% to begin with, but with one ear clogged and shooting pains, I was tripping over air and my own feet. Well thankfully that is in the past now.   We have had the material for the new floors for the kitchen, laundry and the small bathroom off the laundry room. Since they all run into each other i wanted the same flooring.   John

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Meeting Friends

WOW What a Labor Day Weekend Bessy and her husband Ed took an AmTrack train from Chicago to Seattle to come visit us.   They arrived Sunday evening... We met them and they followed us into "town" to check into their Motel. Then we all went out for dinner and visited for awhile.   It was great to meet them. We met them Monday, took them to see John's shop, had lunch and went for a ride for some "site" seeing. Then we came to our house .. 5 acres. So they could meet our animals. I

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Tuesday... Quit Smoking...

I came home from my trip to Ohio and came down with one heck of a head cold..haven't had one this bad in years. Started feeling better yesterday so I am hoping it is on it's way out.   I QUIT smoking...may need some encouragement here guys!!! I have had less than 1/2 a cigarette since Sunday at 10 am. it is 9 am Tuesday. For the most part I am doing fairly well..Had "cravings" really bad about 3 or 4 times.. try to get busy or do something then and am learning they will pass. I

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I'm HOME

I'm home, it was a long week and I am still a bit jet-lagged. I missed everyone here so much..... I think I saw Marty in his yellow shirt but it was a bit cloudy coming into Chicago and had a little turbulence...coming home I was on the aisle seat and wasn't sure if he knew what time I was flying out..lol. My flights were very good. The airport and help getting me to my next gate was EXCELLENT... everyone friendly and extremely helpful. My sister and nephew picked me up at Cleveland

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August Already

Wow I can't belive August is here.. It seems like I was starting plants in the garden window such a short time ago. We are getting veggies from the garden now. and of course the weeds are growing like Weeds.. John also planted 9 blueberry bushes.. no fruit this year... but hopefully next summer. We want to put in some other berry bushes and grapes. We have quite a few apple trees, a couple pears and 2 cherry trees.   We put a flower bed in, it looks nice.. and I am happy to see so m

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Sad News Today

About a year ago I asked for prayers and warm thoughts for John's Uncle Bob, he was having health issues and had to go in for surgery for blocked arteries. At that time they found a mal formed artery and corrected it, he had undergone treatment for prostate cancer also. He has been doing well. He is married to my mother in laws sister. They are all very close. Uncle Bob and Aunt Donni have been together 58 years.. Bob had picked up a light and was going to install it ... Aunt Donni took

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