1. I am woman, and I can roar!
2. I am married, for now.
3. I am a mother of two.
4. I have pierced ears.
5. I hate tattoos on women.
6. I am a demacrat.
7. I am a liberal.
8. I am Pro-choice.
9. I don't believe in organized religion.
10.I used to sew quilts.
11.I once was very creative.
12. My dining room is painted a deep red.
13. My office is a deep hunter green.
14. I love bold colors.
15. I used to be very quiet and shy.
16. If you believe #15 I've got a bridg
I need a handbook that is called something like "Relationships for Dummies" How the hell have I reached the age of 41 and not reached some understanding of what it is I want. Forget the answer to the question of WHO. Sure I know specifically what I won't put up with, but what do I want???? This week I've been guilty of making some pretty broad generalized statements along the lines of I want to be alone, I don't want to live with anyone, ect.... Then at the first opportunity I'm ready to jump o
I don't watch much tv, but for some weeks now, I make sure I am plopped in front of my tv on Tuesdays at 9 and Wednesdays at 8. On A&E is a show called Dog The Bounty Hunter. I am a new fan. I find the show hysterically funny. For a couple hours a week, I get to peek into the world of bounty hunters. While interesting, the appeal for me is the excitement, the danger. Yeah I know I need a life. Working on that..... So for those of you reading my blog, if you have never watched Dog, I strongly
Bill and I decided we need to get organized somehow. My methods don't work and we were bored so we decided to explore courses online. We signed up at Barnes and Noble University for a course on organizing from the inside out. I'll copy and past the course outline and objectives, it may help other survivors too. What grabbed my attention was that this was for the chronically disorganized and I'm still a Fly baby on Fly lady.com. I need help...... I'll keep ya'll posted. (AJ, this may be what you
Alright I'm coming to terms or coming to age (take your pick) with seeing how I really am now. Physically I am old and feeble and doddering on the edge. As in analogy not in actual fact. But has anyone else here given this concept any thought? After surviving stroke, no matter what age we are, physically we just got launched into old age whether we were ready or not. So I am now trying to shift my life around to accomadate that fact. It is behind my decision in housing for the future, mass tr
9 a.m. this morning, I was sitting at my old house at the dining room table I once loved and was thrilled to own. We were getting audited for 2003. It was about an hour into it the agent, says I'm not gonna waste anyone elses time, this is fine here.
But my reason for blogging this, (besides getting off of page 2) is I used to throw everything out. Bank statements, deposit slips ect... well you shouldn't cause they saved our a** today. As 2003 was after I stroked, Kurt took over paying the bi
Where does creativity come from? Is it a talent one is born with? Is it a learned talent from tv, books, magazines, osmosis?
Pre stroke I was very creative, I could do wonders with some fabric, sheets and terra cotta pots and some paint. My head was always full of ideas, I could go to a yard, sale see something and think of an alternative use for the item. I was interested in crafting back then too. My walls were full of sponge painting and stencilling. No piece of furniture was safe from
That you were once unkind befriends me now,
And for that sorrow, which I then did feel,
Needs must I under my transgression bow,
Unless my nerves were brass or hammered steel.
For if you were by my unkindness shaken
As I by yours, oumusthave passed a hell of time,
And I, a tyrant, have no leisure taken
To weigh how once I suffered in your crime.
O, that our night of woe might have remembered
My deepest sense how hard true sorrow hits,
And soon to you, as you to me then, tende
The blog title refers to whatever my fingers type out. I can't decide what I want to blog about right now. My feelings? My thoughts? Ah ha got it! I think I may blog about biker types in reply to a question someone asked in their blog a day or so ago. Or I may just blog about the types of guys in general.
Biker types: Whats the attraction? None really, it is more of a joke between Cinder and I. But biker type guys live on a different side of life..... a short walk on the wild side. As I am
I'll give it a go, but I doubt I'll hit 50! I just didn't want to be left out.
1. Love Actually
2.Titanic
3. Dirty Dancing
4. Flashdance
5. My Cousin Vinny
6. Kate and Leopold
7. You've got Mail
8. Sleepless in Seattle
9. Mask
10. Silkwood
11. Kramer vs. Kramer
12.The Horse Whisperer
13.Tootsie
14.The Big Chill
15. Steel Magnolia's
16. Terms of Endearment
17. Notting Hill
18. Meet Joe Black
19. Rocky Horror Picture Show
20. Top Gun
Well that is a
Ty lookalike update! Turns out the guy is a dreamer, he isn't my landlord at all, just a glorified contractor. The realtor set me straight, said he has been telling that all over town. So gee, now I know keep my distance, unless I'm in distress and have something I just cannot do. Now if I could only win the lottery...... I hope he is around when I get back from grocery shopping today,I cringe at all those bags of groceries that will have to be carried in to the apartment. If he and Mr. Clean a
Well, yes today has been a marathon and it isn't 1 P.M. yet. I have to admit that though productive marathon errand filled days are few and far between these days. I still acknowledge when I have one.
I got up at 6 a.m.
Had a few cups of coffee, let the dog out, seperated the laundry, stripped the bed. Sat down and wrotew out bills, left at 10a.m. put my laundry in the machines, booked out of there, went to the phone company, paid my bill, made a copy of a letter, left there went to the pos
There are just some things that weren't meant to be. I get on a roll that is fed by success of accomplishing one thing, I get all heady and cocky and think I can now rule the world. I decided to cook tonight. My choice was Shrimp Fetticini.But it would be helpful if I had the ALL the right ingredients. I didn't, but I cheated--- thank god for Bistro on the Go! Throw that baby in the microwave and within 10 minutes the kitchen smells as if I've been slaving there all day. OK, one obstacle overc
Yes, I have been reading zen and eastern thinking material again. I have a question from my readings...... Buddha thinks we have a pure mind, I don't think I buy that.
My first initial response was "what about Hitler, Saddam, Mussolini? They definitely didn't have pure mninds, but it was quickly pointed out to me that all my examples I used are insane....... OK, so that brings me back to the original thought... I disagree with Buddha, I don't think we have pure minds as adults, we have our up
I needed something to blog about today, as it is a rainy dreary day and I'm somewhat bored, I thought of what I'd like in the almost perfect guy. Yup, I used the word almost, sort of a disclaimer that I know a perfect person doesn't exist, outside of how I perceive myself! ?Ha! So a girl can dream about the fantasy guy, can't she? This entry may be a super toned down version of sex in the city. I doubt it, cause I don't frequent diners with my girlfriends and stress over being single. Instead
The forcast was for thunder showers and rain all day. But it is a bright sunny day. Which is good as today is the official moving in day. Though most of my stuff is at the apartment, I still have my desk and computer at the house.
I spent most of yesterday at the apartment. My phone, cable and DSL was being hooked up. So I put all those groceries away, unpacked a box or two and started to clean the shower. Well the shower never got finished.... but everything else did. But it was so wierd
I have a ton of stuff swirling in my brain today. To give you an idea- Karma, reincarnation, Existentialism, Kierkgard, Kant's Manifold of Destiny(does anyone understand what he was saying? He fries my brain!)philosphies of Buddihism, Paganism and on and on. My brain just never stops or shuts up, plus all the mundane lists of things to do for christmas, moving, ect ect....legal ends to tie up before I leave the state. Baggage to unpack and or throw away. Now I understand where Scarlett was comi
Hey all,
I had a lightbulb moment today! I feel great! I am me and glad that I made the choices I did. I had to go stay at the house with my daughter this morning.... I was abit apprhensive in going there, but I figured what the hell? So anyway to make a long story short, about an hour and a half into my time at the house it hit me! I looked around, I walked from room to room, I went upstairs, I came back down, I went out to have a smoke on the deck. It wasn't "HOME" anymore. Nothing had been
I'm ready to shut the computer off. Today was a better day then yesterday.My son went for the day to one friends house then went over night to anothers at 7:30. The two people that my daughter invited over can't come for various reasons and I'll admit it, I'm glad. You know I always thought I'd never have kids, never wanted them, never pictured myself as a mom. Well as these things happen, I changed my mind, had the desire to have kids. Pre stroke I did alot for and with my kids, but now, I don'
I am calm this morning, no ranting and raving happening here. PMS has passed and in its wake left a calm peaceful feeling. And even though I was ranting the other day, and said things I shouldn't, I don't regret it. I stand behind everything I said. I did have a period of feeling bad and almost, not quite apologized publically. But what stopped me from apologizing was the question kept pounding in my head...." Hold on, I appointed myself as the voice of the survivor around here. Why should I apo
I don't have anything to blog about specifically.I'm sure something will pour out of me. I feel like I am on a even keel emotionally and mentally. That is some progress.... I've gotten beyond the spouse and the neighbor. I'm convinced she will be my revenge. Ha! sick way to look at something and deal with it, but that is how I work.
The other afternoon the Ty clone was here, he gave me his business card with cell phone number.... yeah, like I'll ever use that or need it. Mr. clean came in and
Big sigh. This morning I went and looked at the apartments that were available here in my rural little town. I saw three. Now some of you may be saying, what happened to the barn? Well it would seem that to the spouse having a year to renovate the barn is better cost effectively and time wise. So he went to the local realtor and set up the appointment for this morning to see the apartments.
Well the first one I saw is on Main Street in a newly renovated old gingerbread victorian. It has been
I sit here this morning. I am just soaking up the peace and quiet. Today is a brand new day, yesterday is over, the sun went down, the sun came up. The energy level of the house is at a quiet hum. They are all still in bed asleep.THANK GOD!!!!!
This week my kids are home from school on break. Yesterday was a day that pre stroke would have had me over the edge. Post stroke, it wiped me out.
It all started out ok enough, coffee and a smoke on the deck, soaking up the sun, listening to the bir
I'm told change is good, keeps things fresh and running smoothly. Now I'm no stranger to change these days. In the past I was gung ho about change, embraced it, looked for it.
Well maybe the novelty of change has finally lost its thrill for me. Just doesn't give me that adrenline rush anymore. That sense of satisfaction.
If change that happens is a good thing for one, then if it is right, it should give a sense of serenity, no? If it doesn't work and isn't good for one, then there is th
