On Friday the 13th we Got worst news of our life Our Brother-in-law passed away in India due to massive heart attack. hubby has very big family and they are all in India. I stayed at my inlaws place after marriage due to visa issue for a year so we both are very close to his side of family. With New technology like video chatting, what's app our whole family is extremely close. So his sudden death was huge shock to whole family. In my 25 years this is the first time I saw hubby crying uncontroll
We just returned from our marvelous Hawaiian cruise. we visited 4 islands out of 8 islands & had fun spending time together. This cruise it was just three of us & it was our early 25th wedding anniversary vacation. Weather was perfect whole week & we loved visiting lovely beaches. Kido took surfing lessons & then off surfing whenever he got chance. I love cruises. It is always stress free vacation. you do excursions if you want to or just stay in ship & enjoy lot of activiti
Happy New year everyone. time is flying by so fast. 2018 got over so quickly, My 2018 was year to be grateful for, lot of new & challenging things happening in my life, though with those challenges also came feeling confident in myself was biggest reward Though lot of times during year felt like giving up, but with not giving up, I see growth in myself. I grew more confident in my ability than inability. Now 2019 is here, year brings in lot of anticipation. I am scared & praying hard fo
we will celebrating my 10th stroke anniversary & valentine day on Feb 8th. It has been long road, but I so want to tell that distraught Asha at the beginning of my post stroke journey that please don't be so hard on yourself things will get better. I am so thankful for having amazing hubby & young son & my whole family who rallied around me & helped me pick up pieces of my life. I am so thankful for my own impatient nature which helped me fuel do more things for myself & our
as most of you know I am blessed with amazing family, who has great dad who provides his unconditional love to all of us & we also have very bright son who on most days is nicest, wise young man who does right things, but I find it sometime we have to push him hard or ask ton of questions before he will do things which is utmost important at this point in his life, so it just escapes me what is he really scared of, why is he not doing what is required of him to do, to be successful in life.
After four years of service as a Blog moderator I have decided to retire from Strokenet from my volunteer position. I have gained a lot of support and friendship during my last 6 years of post stroke journey. I was so thankful when I found this support group during my early dark days of post stroke journey. During that time great volunteers and mentors at SN held my hand and helped me navigate darkest alley of my post stroke life. I am forever thankful and indebted to those individuals. I can't
I can't believe summer is here already & kido finished his freshman year of high school. he is doing quite well in high school thank God. he has turned into great young adult so far though even if he gets those devil horns on his head some days I have grown up enough to realise "this shall pass too lol" luckily with great dad those days are few & far in between. our school district has great system to keep parents informed & in loop which I feel has made huge difference in his acade
As I am growing older in age & in my wisdom, I guess got lot of time in my hand & think of lot of things. like every one I also look at my past & think of things that have hurt me which was said by my parents or siblings, which have made the person I am today. I got lot of regrets about something I did not do right while growing up & I blame my mom for not handling it correctly. I was just venting it to my husband about it & telling him about something beautiful I read in the
I know we all have faced disappointments in life when things don't go your way. It hurts more when your chlld facing that disappointment of not getting into college of his first choice. I know something better will come out of this for this for sure but how do you make your child see the point. why things have to be so hard sometimes. Please pray for our family & our son to get into good college & be happy & successful anywhere he choose to go
Asha
hubby & I have not lived apart since stroke, it has been over 9 years of joined by hip, so when this recent snowstorm made him stay near his office we were both worried how I would handle it, but ofcourse I am blessed in our child's department suddenly he was most agreeable teen & would listen to all my instructions, and was amazingly kind in looking after me. hen I asked if he can stay with me till I fall asleep, he was kind enough to do that so that I don't feel lonely. We got more tha
ok today is not a good day feel like complete looser & failure in life & always needing in help in all wakes of my life. I guess in life you will have both kind of days some good some bad, today is that kind of day feeling like complete looser. I recently lost my diamond erring for my one ear which is side I prefer to sleep on. also had fight with hubby about some some personal home related issue where I said some hurtful things to him & even said hurtful things about our family God
I am usually upbeat person, but last few days have thrown me off the track & I am not feeling so great about my life in general. ok now where do I begin, It started with my PMS, my blister which makes it harder to walk & trying something new at work & royally stuck because I don't know where to turn for help.
Now you got gist of my confused life, I still have lot to be thankful for amazing family spouse, son, brother, sisters, mom, nieces & list is endless but I stil
I am going through yet another change in our life. It's not very big deal but I m realizing and learning new thing about myself and hubby. I don't embrace change in life very easily it does rattle me and make me nervous versus hubby handles change more gracefully than me. He views change as opportunity for growth versus I view as y rock the boat when all is well. Anyway I know at one level I see and get his viewpoints, and know all will be well after initial hiccups how all of you handles chang
lately hubby is working late hours so got plenty of time to think & get my AHA moments dime a dozen. I love this wisdom. recent one I realized that sometimes its so easy to think how someone's life is so perfect based on image they project in movies or on facebook. I suddenly realised that when people project those images, you don't really know their reality It could be completely different than what they are projecting. I tend to compare my life to other people & get unhappy about some
I heard above line of Maya Angelou from oprah & loved it. post stroke I have tendency to look back at my life & regret mistakes I made in my life, well in my 40 plus years I have made some good & bad choices which created my destiny. So I feel solely responsible for my own life. yes I have done mistakes in my life. that's why when I heard Maya Angelou's line " when you know better, you do better". I feel that line very comforting & forgiving. I feel free of guilt & feel as lo
yesterday we celebrated our 20th wedding anniversary. I still remember how I felt awkward & scared on our wedding day since I had just met my hubby 2 times before saying yes to marriage. we both said yes with leap of faith based on our parents decision. for me at that time only two things were important that he has to be more educated than me & has to be self-made man & not dependent on his parents for any of his financial needs. & from things I learnt from my parents he met tho
I am so fortunate & lucky to be married to my soulmate & love of my life by sheer great luck. I know prestroke I was too blind & arrogant to realize that, but post stroke I am realizing how lucky I have got. my weak point is I never notice small things which gets done automatically without me doing anything about it like garbage done emptying, many small things around the house which does not even come under my radar. For me life runs smoothly since husband fairy does everything I mi
As we rolled into new year want to wish every one happy, healthy & prosperous New Year. I never made resolutions in life, but recently when I read Jean riva's blog I loved her idea of just one mantra resolution like find contentment & courage. I was wondering what could be my one mantra resolution for this year. I think I need to learn to accept myself the way I am & stop putting myself down for some things which went wrong cause of me. for this year I think my resolution will be "
today heard this title line. Ït takes courage to believe best is yet to come"". Specially believing this when you are going through tough time. but looking back in my life I have become believer in that line. I wasted countless months and hours crying about how my stroke ruined my life & I have nothing to live for. had it not been my hubby's strength & our son I would have given up long time back. I am so thankful for them both.I didn't have any courage to believe something good will com
Whenever I talk with my old college friend here in US it always ends up with discussion on destiny & choice topic. Both of us are firm believer in our views. She is firm believer in destiny & me in choices, I strongly feel choices we make in our life creates your destiny & she like lot of Indian people and believes who believes in destiny & astrology. She thinks if it is bad phase in your life you will make wrong choices in life. I am firm believer in doing right things & g
our school is starting tomorrow. our kido will be senior this year. I can't believe this is his last year at home before he flies off to college & we will be empty nester. I am filled with so many emotions, I am scared, excited, grateful all emotions filled into one. I am grateful for getting this second chance in life to be able to raise him with my amazing hubby. I don't know as a parent when do you think yes your job done well, now even if death comes knocking on your door you are ready t
Since I am blog junkie I am always reading blogs, and reading all caregivers blogs gives me perspective about what caregivers go through even when they don't share their thoughts & emotions. I know my husband is one of those caregiver who will never tell me what he is experiencing by living with survivor who lately dump everything on him when I get overwhelm with kido's college application process & if he ever give me slightest hard time in doing those applications. I just dump everythin
since this is my blog I am going to write about myself. I have been on this post stroke journey close to 9+ years now and I can still look back & see how far I have come in my post stroke journey. I know how bad & frustrated I felt right after my stroke when I would mess up simple things I could do before. I felt like huge failure when I would misplaced simple things around the house. I spent lot of time in the beginning looking for phone, keys or anything which was in my hand. It used t
We are blessed to have wonderful bright child but ofcourse he is teenager & does not use his brain in all decision-making. he will make silly decisions based on what he talked with other teenagers without thinking it through consequences. I don't know what would I have done if hubby wasn't there with me in keeping him on right path. I keep on trying to get him understand we are in his team & want best for him & there is no ulterior motives for us to make him take right decisions. Of
sometimes stroke recovery is so slow that you don't notice minor improvements, but slowly I have started noticing minor changes in me which I am happy & thankful about so thought about writing. No one likes change in their life & learning new things given choice I was not interested. I know every time this board changed for upgrade or yahoo e-mail or microsoft office changed I would hate learning new things & will go back & use my old ancient way of using products I am so used to
