Is that spring lurking in the corner?
I think so and that's what keeping me positive. I can't wait to have the smell of life in the air. Before my stroke I rode my bike 20 miles a day and lost 50lbs. I know I can't do that but when I'm outside , I can ride forever. The weather has been horrible here. I've spent three days in a row in bed and slept. I would have written that off a being lazy. I now know that if I'm tired, I must need it. Well. I must have needed it. Boy I have the most under
Well yesterday started out like any normal day except I was doing a little housework for I was getting ready to go to my son's to be with him for his dad ( my ex husband) and his new girlfriend were leaving the next day for a flight to catch a cruise. So running around and doing cleaning wasn't anything new. I work better rushed and have done so in cleaning even after the stroke. But since I'm kinda having all the things I can't have after my surgery: like soda and coffee, I'd had a cup in the
Well today I got the results from my neuropsychology and I was very pleased. I’ve learned that my recovery has been very good and strong in a lot of aspects I do have some difficulties in my frontal lobes in my executive function. It’s strange because when you hear what kind of stroke I had you would assume that it will only focus on one side of my brain when in fact it focused on many parts of my brain. My family doctor only sees the stroke happening on my left side of the brain but he forgets
Well I walked in to my therapist office with my mother to meet with my husband.. Only to find out he has already contacted a lawyer and is pursuing a divorce. I knew it could happen but never to us. I have a major problem with my memory that I have very limited long term and shorter short term. I have always told him I feel out of place and I'm trying to fill someone else's shoes as a wife and mother. He has been patient with me but the over whelming of it all is to much. Our arguing, mainly I
So I work for the an organization that supports individuals with both mental and physical disabilities and mostly are adults, at least I where I have been. With anyone, aging may cause other health issues like dementia, Alzheimer's. I worked with a man, who was on a chopped diet, ( food cut no more the 1 inch and eliminating foods that could cause choking) and I would explain to him that I also had issues with swallowing too. Well, I got moved to another program in since December, he had to go
Well yesterday started out as a great day. Knowing another storm is going to hit us, my husband decided to make Italian sweet sausages for dinner. He did all the things needed. Cooked, served and it was delicious. Unfortunately, I've gone one a low salt diet for my heath and KNOW this dinner for tonight isn't good. You should have smelled it. AMAZING. Dinner went great. As we sat down for television time.. you know when your blood pressure has shot up and you feel like you're drunk?... yeah.
OK you have heard from me and others how this is the new you and love it. I've tried explain this to some with conflicting responses.My mother has told me to except the new me.
This is my problem.. This IS the only me I know.
All of my memories of me before this are gone. I can remember things happening such as seeing pictures but not of personal experiences. You know how when you see your baby for the first time, well I don't. Having my son here, who is 17, made it more painful.
OK i Have to get this off my chest:
Picture this.. I get into my car after changing from weight watchers to go to the Sea Food Festival. My cell phone rings for a message so i answer it.
"Kelli....... this is Mike from Florida.. please call me as soon as you get this" ( Mike is my oldest son's grandfather ) By this time my heart is racing for he NEVER just calls me. So I hurry and called him back.
conversation goes as follows:
" Hi Mike it's Kelli. what's up?"
"Hi kelli..
I have to share. My realtor called and informed me my bid was accepted for a condo big enough for me.
It is right down the road from my parents. They are at 90 and this is 31. I was so happy this was a fast sale. i wasn't even looking then BAM. saw that and was shown the next day.The whole process took 2 weeks. ( It helped I was paying cash) It was a great surprise so I'll be on my own but close enough to my support system.
I've never lived on my own but it has two bedrooms so my youngest
Hello all. It's been a looong while since I've blogged. My DVR ( Disability Vocational Rehabilitation) coach had passed the idea to me about blogging. I'm not very good at this but here ya go. I talk a lot but I really don't like talking a lot about me. Honestly. I'll ice the cake as they say but don't like to make the filing. ( crap.. Sassy got my thinking of food)) :wish:
Most, if not all of you know I'm divorced and am living with my family. I enjoy immensely being there. I have a good re
No I'm Leaving... lol
I obtained my LLC and the beginning of my dream, but at a snail's pace, of starting a blog that tells the story of my recovery and challenges of regaining that spark again. It has been a challenge for me and many others finding 'ourselves' after a stroke. Unfortunately there aren't many women willing to talk so candidly about this subject and ya'll know me.. I'll talk about anything and everything with anyone for most times, these are the questions many people have but
Thursday, I traveled to a doctors appointment on Access Link. What that is,is a public transportation geared towards the disabled and elderly. It was defined in the law of the Disability Act that areas that have public transportation, to have a service that follows the transit line, with fare, for those who can't do it unassisted.
With that out of the way
The gentleman that was my returning driver to my drop off and I had about 1 1/2 hours to chat. Traffic was a bear. We bonded due to the
it's been a while since I've been here. So still busy counting down the days till summer then I can complain about it being so hot.So sitting here listening to my music and thinking ti myself... self I said... ' I really can't remember my life before the stroke. Now not sure if that's a good thing. I spoke to my husband about that the yesterday. I know i wasn't just born like "POOF" one day I was here, but that's how i feel. I know I was little and had memories....... ((sigh)) I'm sure over time
Hi all.
I truly don't like talking about myself, though it seems easy lol. After the woman's chat and doing research at the library I began to look inward and discover that I am truly terrified about dating. I don't like going out in crowds,noise,lights and enjoy going to bed early and staying in bed for hours.(not being romantic but not having the energy to even lift my head) Not sounding so tempting.
I think I'm becoming a prisoner of my dizziness and I'm finally beginning
Well today officially starts the first day of the sale of beach tags for the summer beach season. Good thing my father is the beach director but no deals or sales.. oh well at least I'm starting not to be so self conscious because I started to listen to my parents again as they fill in my 'lost gaps' of memory. Pretty scary stuff from their perspective. As with most everything I hear about my past sounds like a movie or story I would find in a library. So I went to a small business expo in So
well I wake up this morning knowing it's not a good thing to jump on a scale everyday...... So what do it do? Jump on the scale. Upset for another three ponds but I'm not putting into consideration that Ive been doing Wii Fit. Why am I so obsessed with weight? Well my parents are very health conscience and I am too. I have to o tell myself that I'm eating more calories then I can burn off. I'm not eating the wrong foods just not as active as I once was. An you know.. that's OK. I give some excel
Well I've been helping my ex husband out with getting our son ready and off to school for he is working out of state and has to leave about 4:45a and my son's bus comes at 8:10a. I don't mind for I'm not working yet. Well I'm not one to really blog but I'm going through a strange experience, in my mind I feel like I never left and it's been almost a year that I've moved out. It looks the SAME way.. but really messy. I'm at a crossroads for i want to clean up for my son also lives here but I'm
so the other day I did something silly. I was holding my plate of hotdogs, a girl gets hungry, and my head and feet lost their way. You know the feeling when you fall and there is nothing you can do but just fall. So that's what I did. I, in a split second, had to figure out what to do with my hot dogs. I ended up dropping them but ended eating them...hey a girl has to eat. I landed on the corner of my living room table. It was EXTREMELY painful. I played it off for a few days, pain and sorenes
Today was my follow up appointment for my elbow at the Rothman Institute. I must be honest I was looking forward to it for my doctor is just a beautiful looking man. It turns out i have the beginnings of carpel tunnel. So not only do I have right side weakness but I have to wear s big brace that also has a brace for my thumb. Typing is a challenge but oh well.Life goes on. I had a good day with my husband and that's all that counts
Well the day finally happened. The day my husband said he can't disassociate the 'new' me from the 'old' me. That was my fear. I still have no memory of me before and told him I always felt like I was being punished for something I didn't do. He likes the new me better.
Frankly I feel happier. Not sure what to do. I'm sure that is his hangup.
We're still happy but we were out to dinner last night ( PS when my husband cooks we always go out... I love when he cooks lol) and my son got a f
It struck me how Katrina was a part of my psyche. I was heading back to my sons house when I became overwhelmed with the thoughts of dating again. How we were predisposed to many ideals of how 'Beauty makes you happy" I admit that for most of my life I've suffered from Body Dysmorphia. I've seen doctors and been in and out of therapists offices for years to no avail.But that's neither here nor there... ANYWAY I gained a bunch of weight but have lost some and now upset that the person who i meet
so I was going over to my sink and it hit me :
I could never have afforded the place i'm in without having had a stroke and lawsuit.
I am completely in awe of everyone whom I've had the pleasure meeting here. I often feel disingenuous after reading the individual stories here mostly due to I see the daily challenges faced. I know a stroke is a stroke and we all have our own struggles and don't compare ourselves to others. I agree.. i just wanted to share my deepest sincerity when i say
I was reading Katrina's post about how she may say somethings and it is interpreted as mean or off. That hit me like a ton of bricks. That so explains the story of my life. I've noticed that my husband is more gentle than I am so when I react or speak, he takes it as the correct way I'm trying to convey my thoughts or feelings. I told him I'm a walking contradiction. Don't say this to me but understand that I'm always not meaning this when I say that. I'm sure he is walking on eggshells. I ha
Well I've been under stress because I'm staying at my ex husbands with our son and life seems to be like it always has been so in a strokies head it's confusing. So I was at home ( aka parents house) and bent down to pick up something that fell and when I stood up, my pulse began to race. Ok No biggie. I've had this happen many times and seen a cardiologist and got the OK heart is 'strong like bull' and put my on a low dose of meds to keep it slow (runs in the family) and she taught me tricks t
There is never a moment with hanging out with me. I woke up one night I noticed a very delicious looking recipe for sliced cucumbers and I knew exactly what I had to do. While my son and I were watching the Olympics on television I decided it would be the best time to slice my cucumbers. I did not expect is that them to sliced so smoothly then again, that’s what the mandolin was designed for. I was swinging my arms back and forth effortlessly cutting the cucumber and the next thing I knew I had
