Ok so not to much to say other than since i've been divorced, I've spent more time at my ex husbands helping him with our son while he is at work. He leaves early for work,, even before the sun rises.. it's been 2 years that we've been separated and one year since divorce. Maybe it's because I've been up here so much that to me, in my mind, no time has passed. I have no concept of time. Like it's been 6+ years since my stroke but to me it's been moments. I put on a brave face and honestly I'm st
I have to share. My realtor called and informed me my bid was accepted for a condo big enough for me.
It is right down the road from my parents. They are at 90 and this is 31. I was so happy this was a fast sale. i wasn't even looking then BAM. saw that and was shown the next day.The whole process took 2 weeks. ( It helped I was paying cash) It was a great surprise so I'll be on my own but close enough to my support system.
I've never lived on my own but it has two bedrooms so my youngest
as some people know I have taken inspiration from Steve and wanted to share my insight on the lack of information for Women's sexuality after stroke awareness as well of the lack of information for the medical community when dealing with younger persons who enter the ER who are disregarded of possible stroke signs for stress or anxiety instead.
Through my dealings with DVR ( Department of Vocational Rehabilitation) the idea of starting my own business as a blogger to the masses concerning my
I went to a dance club with my best friend and I was totally excited. Well I feel my friendship was put to the test over this.
We went to dinner and had a great time. Had cranberry juice in a fancy glass.
Started out great. We sat outside in the by the 'fireplaces' and felt really good with my ear plugs in. It really wasn't packed full of people.
(Let me add in this for it comes up later: she is the one why I shaved my hair off. She has a shunt infection in her head.)
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There was a
Hi all.
I truly don't like talking about myself, though it seems easy lol. After the woman's chat and doing research at the library I began to look inward and discover that I am truly terrified about dating. I don't like going out in crowds,noise,lights and enjoy going to bed early and staying in bed for hours.(not being romantic but not having the energy to even lift my head) Not sounding so tempting.
I think I'm becoming a prisoner of my dizziness and I'm finally beginning
So we had a great deal of feed back to our topic about reclaiming the woman in us after stroke. The thing I noticed is that this conversation isn't talked about a lot. Is it taboo? Well yes. If you look at the general age bracket of stroke survivors in woman, the age is between 50's and 70's. Well unfortunately, there are younger women who are suffering stroke and this topic isn't as a behind the closed door conversation.
I am talking to my Vocational Rehabilitation Caseworker about this ver
Well I've been under stress because I'm staying at my ex husbands with our son and life seems to be like it always has been so in a strokies head it's confusing. So I was at home ( aka parents house) and bent down to pick up something that fell and when I stood up, my pulse began to race. Ok No biggie. I've had this happen many times and seen a cardiologist and got the OK heart is 'strong like bull' and put my on a low dose of meds to keep it slow (runs in the family) and she taught me tricks t
Hello all. It's been a looong while since I've blogged. My DVR ( Disability Vocational Rehabilitation) coach had passed the idea to me about blogging. I'm not very good at this but here ya go. I talk a lot but I really don't like talking a lot about me. Honestly. I'll ice the cake as they say but don't like to make the filing. ( crap.. Sassy got my thinking of food)) :wish:
Most, if not all of you know I'm divorced and am living with my family. I enjoy immensely being there. I have a good re
Well I've been helping my ex husband out with getting our son ready and off to school for he is working out of state and has to leave about 4:45a and my son's bus comes at 8:10a. I don't mind for I'm not working yet. Well I'm not one to really blog but I'm going through a strange experience, in my mind I feel like I never left and it's been almost a year that I've moved out. It looks the SAME way.. but really messy. I'm at a crossroads for i want to clean up for my son also lives here but I'm
I know I've been sporadically here as of late.
As many of you know I'm going through a divorce and it's an odd feeling. Not so much as the procedure but the fact I'm stumped because I know he exhausted with the memories pre stroke and that is where I am at a loss. I have no idea. I've excepted the idea it's OK not to always understand. I guess because all I know is the past 5 years and knowing I'm going to start fresh kinda scares me for he's all I've ever known if you think about it. I know
Well it started out as a celebration of a selfless and beautiful woman's departure into heaven. This particular person had been a godsend in our lives after my stroke and continued to be even when she was battling cancer. Even though we were sadden by the day we were reminded of all the lovely attributes she had imprinted to the many lives she touched. My husband and I were driving back to my house and I started to experience a flutter in my chest that I've had before and never thought much abo
well after going through my SSID payments and now having to pay for Medicare.. I'm beginning to understand how hard it is. I say that not as being Prudish but having a security with someone else paying the bills. I'm much more appreciative of what I've read over the years here. I'm better understanding the implications of 'fixed income' I never really dealt with it before. Now I sound like a spoiled brat but I'm going to be 40 this year and have NEVER paid a rent, mortgage or anything on my own,
Well I walked in to my therapist office with my mother to meet with my husband.. Only to find out he has already contacted a lawyer and is pursuing a divorce. I knew it could happen but never to us. I have a major problem with my memory that I have very limited long term and shorter short term. I have always told him I feel out of place and I'm trying to fill someone else's shoes as a wife and mother. He has been patient with me but the over whelming of it all is to much. Our arguing, mainly I
I was reading Katrina's post about how she may say somethings and it is interpreted as mean or off. That hit me like a ton of bricks. That so explains the story of my life. I've noticed that my husband is more gentle than I am so when I react or speak, he takes it as the correct way I'm trying to convey my thoughts or feelings. I told him I'm a walking contradiction. Don't say this to me but understand that I'm always not meaning this when I say that. I'm sure he is walking on eggshells. I ha
Ok. So as some of you know after stroke , you may have had some OCD tendencies. Well, I have and boy is it a pain. as some of you know relationships and marriage a part of that is closeness. Well tonight while doing the dinner dishes my husband wanted to give me a kiss. Before the stroke,not a big deal to have a distraction but this time it wasn't as easy as that. I get a physical pain when I have to stop what I'm doing. A chest pain. A stomach ache. I know I must be hypocritical to him becau
Hi so I'm having a but of a problem
I've asked around to get a general census . I have to cut back on my therapy because It costs to much. I have been going to therapy for about 4.5 years for one thing or another. This is for my visual therapy. My husbands insurance is very good but I see their point of its been almost 5 years and no change to diagnosis other then the use of prisms so each visit is $150. for therapy.. every week plus bus fare.
I had to pay this before because when the unio
I know it has been a while since I posted anything. I just wanted to talk about the data I had yesterday.
I met two very interesting people in my therapy session The First one was a young man. He had open heart surgery which resulted in a stroke while under Anesthesia. So imagine waking up after a simple routine procedure to only be told you had a stroke. He had to get re opened and remain that way for almost a week and in hospital for almost 3 months. He looks fantastic and I'd never know
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hi guys.
Well here is my predicament
i'm not proud to say that before my stroke, I had an affair on my husband. The dilemma is I have no memory of that nor a good hunk of my life.
We are in counseling for this as well as cognitive and we been working on rebuilding trust. I own my part in this but this is my question:
My therapist even agrees that something had to push me to that point, Which in fact it did.
According to my best friend and also m
Thursday, I traveled to a doctors appointment on Access Link. What that is,is a public transportation geared towards the disabled and elderly. It was defined in the law of the Disability Act that areas that have public transportation, to have a service that follows the transit line, with fare, for those who can't do it unassisted.
With that out of the way
The gentleman that was my returning driver to my drop off and I had about 1 1/2 hours to chat. Traffic was a bear. We bonded due to the
owdy friends,
At this time I may not be on so much and I apologize. My husband wanted to spend his time at his parents. When you know someones ticket has already been clicked.. you working on time schedule. He has seen gone back to work and I can't drive so i can be here more often.
That being said:::::
I need help with my personal picture.
I truthfully needing ways to boost up self esteem when you have always been told How you act or do is being judged for..... I know I need no
It's been sometime. I apologize. But sadly as it is when a stroke comes. IT IS WHAT IT IS. That's neither here nor there. ANYWAYS>>>>>>>>>>>
Ever since my stroke I've seen a bunch of doctors and some just gave me a singular point of view mainly. I went to go a new neuro, who was highly recommend to me from another regarded survivor. SO.....
He looked at all my charts and read them all and gave me a an over all summary. Concerning my memories. Considerin
OK you have heard from me and others how this is the new you and love it. I've tried explain this to some with conflicting responses.My mother has told me to except the new me.
This is my problem.. This IS the only me I know.
All of my memories of me before this are gone. I can remember things happening such as seeing pictures but not of personal experiences. You know how when you see your baby for the first time, well I don't. Having my son here, who is 17, made it more painful.
:notfair:So where do begin. I've experienced many
other people emotional woes. My husband comes home from work and I know he is
physically exhausted. But at the same times, I need to go out to the store and
since i can't drive he has to. I have to make lists for the store and I know out
of his exhaustion,he'd rather go alone. I understand that but what about me, I
would be one thing if I could jump in the car and go for him but no, Maybe one
day, I have to stay optimistic. I apolog
well so i agreed to watch my niece and nephew for the summer and not knowing it was going to be so hard. I love them but my son, who is 8, had to grow up fast to be a little 'daddy's helper' when he was at work. I have adapted to that and my sisters children are 'normal' kids who run around and play. But that week had then was to much. Always having to correct them and clean up after them was to much. I love having them here but for small doses.
My sister explains to mew that she unders
Well today started out OK. Rode my bike outside for about 5 miles which for me is great!! Rode to the store near me for I had a dinner in my head I had to try. It was tough but it felt so good to be out and farther then I'd been in a while. A cool breeze and it finally broke out of the 90's today. Perfect.
So around 4:45 my husband came home in a hurry.
OK let's back up and I wrote him a note last night. I express myself clearer in words anymore then speaking.I basically feel like I'm
