The cna who touched my leg has a booming voice and perhaps thinks everyone wants to hear her every comment or wants to wake the dead. She makes comments. snide scarcasm. she laughs. like that was a joke. weird. dumb comments. cruel.
That voice chills my soul. Now she takes care of the rooms around mine. not in here but her voice is in here. constantly. except her break. she talks naturally projecting. She is a big woman too. Already established she does not have concern for others. s
I am so fatigued. I recently want to sleep all of the time. I can hardly stay awake for manicure or shower. I go to appt and then I sleep hard.
My leg gave out and I plopped in a chair hard with a painful scream. Another lady wheeled over to get therapists to help me. But I said I was fine and it happens my leg gives out. I was told the brain signal is weak and my leg is lost for a moment. It buckles. My leg goes to sleep a moment.
It happens before meds alot. I need mecl
I helped a woman here get a free cell phone smart phone that the government pays for service. It is really nice. arrived fast. Now she comes to practice learn to use it. She calls for me to visit with her. Her son cut off her phone service among other problems. She is heartbroken. She was thrilled to learn she could have a phone independently.
It is not like mine but I consider why I do not use that one. We have a nice family plan. It connects us. We share movies and amazon. I
An urgent care doc caught that the nursing home was giving me medication wrong. I called their pharmacy and it was confirmed. it was meclizine. it cause drowsy. They were giving it every 4 hrs when it should have been every 8 hrs. wow. I failed to keep up. The nurses make mistakes. It happens. Sometimes I miss it until later. Glad it is fixed. Blessed.
I am going for an echocardiogram. again. last one in 2015. new doc wants to see if swelling comes from my heart. I constantly live wi
A cna who knows better touched my leg. I think she did it in intentionally. I was asleep sitting up and instead of touching my shoulder hand she touched my thigh to wake me. She knew but forgot that touches brand me lie fire. Is that intentional?
I guess I do not know much about living just today but at dinner as I sat in the dining room eating with some residents and one caregiver of one resident who has become a friend....I looked around and realized I have been here comfortable with the fact I am in the middle of a place in which so many personalities dwell in their own story lines as staff or patient and I belong....maybe not my choosing...but I felt warm fuzzy love for my companions in the room. I have been away dining in my room wi
I wonder if I am the only one who had to go into a nursing home and if I will ever get to live a normal life again. That is why I push and do not accept it when they say oh here is a cane now practice therapy at home. I need to get out of here and have my therapy days. This past therapy the PT said if I do these 3 exercises everyday I will improve. I was not impressed that some squats and headturns is enough. He hurried me along recommending a cane but I know I am even unsteady with my 3 wheeler
I wonder if I am the only one who had to go into a nursing home and if I will ever get to live a normal life again. That is why I push and do not accept it when they say oh here is a cane now practice therapy at home. I need to get out of here and have my therapy days. This past therapy the PT said if I do these 3 exercises everyday I will improve. I was not impressed that some squats and headturns is enough. He hurried me along recommending a cane but I know I am even unsteady with my 3 wheeler
I have the invasion of the body snatchers. I woke with light sensitive headache and as my tiny daughter said, my eyebrows hurt. I was told by NP to take meds not close to best treatment. I got myself to urgent care to see a real doc who gave me the right stuff. In 48 hours I feel clearing less stuffy pressure. My facial swelling is down. It makes a difference to have the doctors see me. That is a fight here in the snf. But in our household my kids know the drill for a sinus infection. Like c
I have the invasion of the body snatchers. I woke with light sensitive headache and as my tiny daughter said, my eyebrows hurt. I was told by NP to take meds not close to best treatment. I got myself to urgent care to see a real doc who gave me the right stuff. In 48 hours I feel clearing less stuffy pressure. My facial swelling is down. It makes a difference to have the doctors see me. That is a fight here in the snf. But in our household my kids know the drill for a sinus infection. Like c
Later today I must go to new primary doc. I hope this one will be satisfactory and keep me functioning.
I am hoping she will find out why I am so fatigued falling asleep and get all my referrals for therapy. I do not want my therapy to end.
In my last PT session the guy said you can walk with a cane now. Well I have been able to but the concern was my balance out in the big world where my vestibular system breaks down. I was told no not yet. I felt his saying go ahead with cane was
I lose time. I wake up in uncomfortable positions. I wear a back brace now. I hate how the parade of you do not have the latest tekky stu$f goes on.. it gets teeny or bigger but it still is a phone. people d11111o not lok me in the eye. I am on meds. I need to be but I am so[ afraid. Is anyone delse havinryg sleep difficulties. I cry. I oversleep me help meds. I must live this way. I wish the spinal would last longer.
I color and watch birds. Days zoom by I love my kids and wait to see t
I just dreamed The Teacher came to an unknown apartment to speak to me about my two boys being absent too much and I stood in my nightgown telling her I had a stroke. We did not have anything to eat. I woke up. Gosh I have always had food and my kids went to school way before stroke. I feel so sad from this dream. I think about my memories all the time. I am robbed living in this nursing home. I lack any life. I only deal with pain relief. It is not the balance or stroke things.
I am lucky
My friend here is a blind man named Ramon. His English is better than my Spanish but he says my voice is music to his ears and says he hears me in his dreams. He asked me to be his girlfriend. I said no one has asked me that for years. I said I am old ill and ugly. He said he was told I am looking young and pretty so We are beauty and the beast. In reality I only have brief visits in passing. He asked me to move into his room once but I explained it was not allowed and wondered why he seemed n
Today I heard a cna mimicking this lady who calls scuze me I wanna go back to my room. She aches hurts in her wheelchair during activities that she also lost interest in. She had a stroke and her hand is in a brace.She is warm and waves her beautiful good hand at her friends she sees down the hall as she sits in front of nurse station. I help her at bingo. She likes to win. But the whole time she says thank you. But sometimes they scold her telling her to wait until this or that is over for some
I learned there is program that gives special shoes with pads and you choose from a catalog.go in for fitting measurement. I have probs with feet so dr. wrote Rx. I am in CA. They give pads insoles to change. They even have for AFO and stabilizing for balance athletic dress all closed toe kinds. I am looking now. Hard to decide. Pass the word. when I get compliment on my shoes and tell all this people are surprised. another patient told me.
In the morning I will get 2nd Radiofrequency Ablation. I am exhausted since my poor roomie with dementia loves to be craziest at night. I have a lovely patio room I decorated with my art and collages so I choose not to switch rooms as this SNF offers as a solution regardless of the fact she verbally torments me. In fact when I holla back to stfu then I abuse her because I can walk. So on that day the director informed me all that I fearlessly threw her out and refused to sign a paper that inform
I need things. I talked my way into having my doc prescribe it, the insurance to pay for it yet now just getting it is making me walk on nails. and why do they backorder something across country. But I have a case manager that I beg to handle things because people hear my slower speech and they think i am brain damaged. well I am. but I cry easily. I forget midsentence. I cannot calm down when they treat me disrespectfully. I hang up. I say next time I will be ok.
I am fortunate to get a new
I frequently fall asleep on right elbow so I have damaged the ulnar nerve so my hand is useles just about. I went to eye clinic a nd found out the prisms are not in my new glasses. The pretty ones.. so hard to read, color.
my tiny grandson born on Sept 12 is in surgery this morning for his kidney and itestine problems. This is his second surgery. He only has one kidney and they are trying to get it working properly. I held him only one day and he smiles when he is full. He gets that from me. He is beautiful and we all think he resembles someone but in fact he is just him and that is cute. His little life is precious and mom has tried so hard to give him a great start in this life we somehow love and hang on to.
I had a quarterly meeting that was strange. One staff member came in to chat with me and she focused on what was my pain level number. I said it was a 7. I am dealing with the staff not giving me the pain meds on time and they lie about leaving it on my table instead of waking me up. I photographed the med cup with the pill in it and showed supervisor the picture with the time on the detail page. They are so concerned with the pain number that another woman followed and she wanted to discuss i
I had a wonderful summer despite this hanging on summer virus that prohibs me from getting the RFA. I made a bucket list for summer that included some restaurants, some clothes, some destinations, and I spent quality time with people sharing these things. One thing is I had a make over and maintained it determined that despite how I feel, I will glam. I am inspired by the people here in the residence who dress, partiipate in grooming activities and get involved with life. I now have visitors wh
A few days per week, we play Bingo and sit at the same seats ususally. So we had just finished a game and we were waiting to collect our prizes. The staff was going through the shift change and the talking was loud in the common room next to the nurse's station. But I never mind because the air is coolest in this room and I ususally bring a scarf or wrap for when the air conditioning is too enthusiastic.One of the CNAs said, "I just want to fix her hair!" and she was looking at an Afrian America
I missed my radiofrequency ablation appointmenton August 1st because I have been ill for all this time. I was told it is a virus back in early July. I took 2 rounds of Z pak, cough syrup, an inhaler, logenzes, steamy showers on shower days, and whatever other thing I could do such as order from a local ethnic restaurant because I cannot get chicken soup from our kitchen in the nursing home. I hope to get some canned foods to keep in a drawer. So this virus and any bacteria seem to either be lin
