My week got a little better. I cannot remember what I did on Tuesday and Wednesday right now but yesterday was pretty good. I woke up and went to the gym for yoga. We worked on hips and abs so it was a workout. I did the nustep machine for 20 minutes before yoga. Tried to get my most out of my last day. Before I left, I asked my instructor if he knew anyone that does acupuncture. Another lady heard me and told me about an acupuncturist who was trained in Korea I think. Im going to check him out. I know the effects are only temporary but I really dont want to go back to my botox doctor. After the gym I treated myself to lunch then did some shopping. It made me appreciate the perks of not having a full time job. Yesterday I started my blog grateful I'd gone a week without a seizure and just talking about my easy going day.

Well the reason I cant remember what happened Tuesday or Wednesday is because it is 4am and an hour ago I woke up from a seizure. My dad and brother were in my room and I was crying. He told me what happened. He said he heard me making noises and came to my room but I asked him why was he in my room and told him I was okay. So he shut my door but he heard more noises like moaning so he came back in. I dont remember any of that. My brother said I was talking out my head not making any sense like I was still dreaming and I kept kicking my feet. Later I remembered having the seizure in my sleep laying on my left side feeling like someone was pushing me over and I was pushing back while my left side was tingly and jerking and I was trying to scream for help.

My left arm and wrist is still very sore I guess from the muscle contractions but luckily I sleep next to the wall so instead of ending up on the floor I just woke up in the middle of the bed. My dad says he doesnt think I was having a seizure because "its like I was awake but sleep at the same time". I think I just was experiencing the psychosis the psychiatrist diagnosed me with that comes after the seizure by the time he walked in my room and I started talking to him.

Basically I am just frustrated with these seizures. I have not had a seizure in my sleep since I started he klonapin in september. I know its effectiveness is only temporary so I hope it is not wearing off. I pray every day and night and take the time throughout the day to thank God for no seizures and for keeping me safe while driving and out in public. I know I cant let this one incident ruin my good day. It just seems like every time I catch a break and try to look on the positive side, something bad happens. Since the Abilify is an antipsychotic and I was diagnosed with epileptic psychosis, I am thinking about starting it but I am going to wait until I see the epilepsy doctor at UNC next week first.