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Still Smiling


CagedBird

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Well I finally decided to update my profile picture since 2008 lol I just took that photo today. The other day I was going through some sadness. It was like I finally stopped worrying about the psychological issues I've been going through and suddenly my mind went back to "woe is me I had a stroke." I don't know why but I suddenly felt so inadequate. I felt like I may never be a good enough wife or mother because of my limitations, I may never have the career I want because of my limitations. I just felt frustrated in general, tired of struggling to do things with one hand after all these years, tired of wearing the same shoes every day because my brace wont fit in anything else. Tired of living in poverty, having to worry about discrimination every time I apply for a job because I am a black disabled woman. I just felt so overwhelmed and inadequate.

 

Luckily my therapist came over the following day. She really helped me feel a little bit better and gave me an exercise to do for next week when we meet. I am glad I noticed my sadness and talked about it and calmed down before it turned into depression or got worse. I did not get the job at the library that I interviewed for but it's okay. I was more than qualified, I passed all of the tests the committee gave me after the interview, and I followed up with a thank you letter. But I'm still smiling. My family is in good health, I'm in good health, and I really want to do more traveling this year so I am just going to enjoy the free time. My license is still under review but I don't need a license to take a plane, train, or bus to go on trips with my church friends and visit family :)

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Katrina, love your new photo, you are happy and smiling in it! None of us are happy and smiling all the time, we all have our good days and our bad days.  As a young woman I used to think everyone else could do things so much better than I could until I found out some had made ghastly mistakes and just covered them up. So we need to know our strengths and say:  "yes, I am pretty good at that", neither boasting or underplaying our strengths.

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Hi Katrina, keep on thinking positive. No matter what, we are still here

and life goes on. Love the new look.

 

Take care enjoy your travels.

 

Yvonne

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very good picture Katrina.  I think you will simply be a most wonderful wife and mother both because of and in spite of your limitations. I think that having limitations makes you much more understanding of others.

 

the library has no idea of the person they passed over(lol). you will get there Katrina, I know it!

 

kind regards,

david

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Hey my little sister, let me say once again "life is great" and we can live it to the fullest if we got one leg, one hand, or one eye just being alive to live a bit longer is a blessing we can't pass up...

 

There are men and women here without hands, arms, or legs and some with kids and families... But all of us look at it as having served our country in time of wars... In my case to have survived a stroke is as bad as having lost a part of your body in the wars and I almost did that too...

 

Great picture keep on living things will work out in your favor for sure!!!

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