my god pam! I can truly feel your grief and pain. you are a good person and quite bright and as I have said many times you have an incredible talent in writing as no one else.

I don't know if you know someone named Richard taylor.  a person with alzheimers. he wrote a book some time after he was diagnosed with AD called AD from the inside out.  I was concerned at that time (about 10 years ago) that I was experiencing the beginning of AD).  and his writing although very good is not in your class.

I know that you are an extraordinarily strong person pam, far stronger than I would be.  (I crumble easily(lol)).  you will come past this little setback that would destroy most people.

you are in my thoughts often.

take good care of yourself!

david 

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=fZly12eGpNA

Pam, I am very sorry to hear about your misfortunes. Per the lack of physical therapy, you are a determined person and you can do your own physical therapy. I have had to before I know it is not the same but it's something. Here is a song that I recently found that I think is fitting. Of course it does not fit your scenario perfectly but possibly the emotion

Pam :

I am so sorry for what you are going through & feel so helpless. I pray for your strength & some angel to appear by your side to help you out. you areone strong woman. I hope you are able to join us in chats soon.

Asha

Pam, I must agree with David. Your writing is some of the most honest, raw emotional and open writing I have ever read. You know, our plans change abruptly sometimes and maybe your plan should be in the area of writing.

Your physical body may be betraying you, but your intellectual self is so acute and brilliant. Something to consider? Your thoughts and experiences might help others who grapple with where they fit into a place they don't necessarily belong. An author is born!!

Ann

Pam, I agree with David, and Ann, your writing is amazing, and you are a

strong, bright, lady. Everything happens for a reason, we can not see it

righ now, but you are a writer, who is in a nursing home, and can write

and let us know what is really going on there. I am praying that the pain

you are going through soon becomes bearable.

You are a Gladiator!

You are in my thoughs and Prayers

Yvonne

Pam: I can only thank you for your honesty and enlightenment. My Bruce could never be as descriptive. But you have certainly opened the door for me. In my prayers and thoughts, certainly. Debbie

pam im sorry that you have this trouble you are going thru

Thank you for once again giving me a piece of your strength through listening. Thanks for your words because I feel shame even writing.

I hope it helps someone else to know they are not alone as I have been helped by reading blogs here,even if I did not respond to them,but I try to.

Yes I have wonderful roommate who has my back and is a real angel.

I believe I am always where I am meant to be. I dont want to be here.