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"All About You"!!!!!


SweetMom

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Ya know I used to work on a computer all day for almost 30 years and now I can't figure out how to do this or that. My husband is baffled by my inabilities to remember or figure things out and then he has to do it. I hear "Everything is always all about YOU!!!!!!" and then I think, UHOH, he needs a break.

I try not to make things "all about me" but I don't even know I'm doing it. He says I'm selfish. Maybe I am. I don't know. I haven't figured that one out yet nor can I remember to.

So........I will tell you about me: I have 6 children total. 2 biological sons, 3 step sons, 1 stepdaughter and 5 grandchildren. I worked in the Engineering/Surveying field for almost 40 yrs. When my children were young, I was a single mother for 10 yrs. I met my late husband in 1993, my older sister (my best friend) died on Thanksgiving day 1994 from a brain aneurysm. In 1996 I married my late husband and in 1998 he was diagnosed with stage 4 lymphoma. I cared for him for 10 years while he got it 2X more and he died in 2008. I lost my stepfather from asbestosis in 2007 and my daddy from throat cancer in 2009. I remarried in 2010 to my current husband. He has had cancer (Basal Cell Carcinoma) 4X in the corner of his eye, the last time having to go to MD Anderson for treatment and surgery. I was laid off of my dream job after 6 yrs of employment there in 2011. Since I was in my 50's, employment was hard to come by so I became a waitress in a little village tourist town nearby. Now that was fun. I met so many people and I miss my customers. I worked during tourist season for 3 years and then the employer closed the business. I had the strokes in 2015 and here I am about to celebrate the 1 year anniversary of a different me. It's almost like a birthday. I have come a long way but my social skills are still lacking. I am so much happier just doing my art and craft work. This is me now and since I don't know who I am yet I hope I like who I become.

 

Sincerely,

Donna (SweetMom)

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Donna, thank you for starting a blog and telling us about your life.  We all have a story and reading another's story will often help.  Don't worry about the "all about me" side of having a stroke, I think it is par for the course, just go as easy as you can on your husband (caregiver) because i know how frustrating a job that can be having done it myself.  We do it out of love so if you can let him know you love him and appreciate what he does that will make a difference.

 

I look forward to hearing more of your stroke story and encouraging you along the way.

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Well Donna,

 

Times and machines change plus we get a bit older and out of touch.... I finished college in 1978 using a typewriter no computers in my unit at that time in Germany...... I'm self taught for the most part and was in personnel unit but had lower ranking guys and gals doing all the typing I just write up what I needed to be typed up...... 

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Hi Donna, loved your story. Strokes make us very selfish. Just keep on "Petting " your husband

 

.After my stroke it took about a year before I would even touch my lap top. Even now if something goes wrong I call my grandson who lives with me and this 10yrs old  loves helping "grandma", it makes him feel so grown up!

 

Take car, Love and Hugs

 

Yvonne

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Hi donna

 

I am glad you started blog I found blogging hugely therapeutic for my soul reading writing everything helps I stroked at age 34 which retired me from the job I loved I was lost for few years trying to figure out who am I after my job loss it took a while but I found my new normal and happy place after stroke. I found blogging and chatting with other survivors very therapeutic. Hope to see you around often

 

Asha

 

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Ya know a stroke doesn't make you're stupid or dumb (altho I feel that way sometimes). The smarts are there, its just harder to get them outta your head. We need a country song about that. LOL Ya know it would benefit all stroke survivors if insurance would pay for group sessions. I know if I had an hour in a group session, maybe I wouldn't have such social problems. 

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Donna I can relate. Know somewhere I am selfish but I fail to understand it all too. Just have a very different life experience now, more needs for assistance and different emotional experiences. I hope others understand what even I find baffling. I realize others remember my old life and miss it too. I too am still in a transition even this late in the game. Or is it still in the beginning?

 

You have been the one doing the caring,so I know this is different for you now.

 

I think stroke takes hold of a home life like wild ivy vines. Of course the changes are everywhere constantly. And we are often expected to sort it out while we are still sorting our own mind and body out. I think it helps to be here on this site,with guidance,with friends,with a safe place to be yourself.

 

Thanks for sharing your journey because it made me realize some things abou my own...and that is a gift.

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​That is my goal in life, to make a difference in someone else's life everyday, whether it be good or not. That way I will be remembered, whether it be good or not.

That was my goal when I was a waitress, to touch someone else life everyday. I met lot of people I miss dearly.

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