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GUILTY


Willis

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I feel bad that this is not more troubling to me. I hope of course it doesn't touch me or family and friend but it is more interesting to me than frightening right now. It's in Michigan and spreading now. I'm doing all the things my government is telling me to do or not do. Shelter in place? Yeah been pretty much doing that for 5 years. I've got that down. My brain bleed left my left side pretty much disabled. I have mobility but very little sensation. I can limp around and "leftie" is using his left arm and hand more all the time. Especially on good days. I came out of it very lucky. I say this because I read of so many other members that are dealing with multiple issues caused by their strokes. Frankly I don't know how you do it or where you find the strength. I don't think I'm strong enough to fight through things like they do. So I guess what it is, my world was turned upside down for good 5 years ago and this crap doesn't change much for me Everyone shelter, wash those hands and stay safe 

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On 5/17/2020 at 8:58 AM, alansd said:

yes sir! I just tried out and then ordered a recumbent trike for my birthday gift to myself. Cant wait to get out and cruise,My short trial ride on our rails to trails thing was so much fun, and no stress, glad i could comfortably and smoothly ride while steering with my right arm only. Getting the Trident trike...Spike.Now lool\king at helmets.gotta protect what I have left.

Great! My recumbent is stationery and I have it in a picture window where I can watch the bird feeders and the rest of the world going by. I have thought about a trike for these scenic dirt roads I live on in the country. I know you did your research before deciding on a model. Good move trying it out. That is what my wife suggested too if I moved forward. Reading reviews the biggest complaint seemed to be that they tend to pull to the side the gear is on the rear axle. What a great gift for yourself to enjoy the scenery. Enjoy and be careful.  :wine: Happy Birthday! 

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Well that explains a lot. Recorded, watching and rewatching  a 3 part series series on the human body that was presented on Public TV. Part one was on our growth and development. The part that discussed our brains was of course all consuming and very fascinating. FACT: even though our brains make up only 2% of our body weight they demand and consume 20% of our calorie intake and they were talking about an undamaged brain I'm sure. Can anyone say fatique?    

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Just a little bit 🙂  One hour with the EP this arvo and it would be so easy to collapse in the recliner now. But I need to stay awake until yoga at 6:30 whats the bet tonight's meditation becomes a nap 😜

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Yes always the need to push forward. It is a good thing. With me I can usually do it if I remember to "enjoy and embrace slow". it's not a bad thing and but I need to always remind myself of that. Naps yes! Childhood punishments have become adult rewards.🛌 🤣

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I think you will be pleased with your purchase. It will take a little bit of figuring out what set up will be the most beneficial to you. It (like everything) is computerized and will have a nice option of settings from programs (I set mine for manual), timing of the minutes you want to ride and how much resistance you would like when peddling. When done it will display your results for you. I mostly pay attention to how far I rode and total the 3 sessions when done. My recumbent's resistance goes from 1 to 12. 1 being pretty much the peddles going around with very little push. I started at 3 and have recently moved up to resistance level 4. Other days I will do a 5 minute level 7 resistance sandwiched by two level 4's  That is on days I don't do any weights. I use to have a goal of riding 15 straight minutes (per what my doctor thought was a good # of minutes for a senior). I found that to be torture and it seemed like an hour sometimes. I decided to do 3 five minute rides instead and that has worked out much better. The bike and weights don't make me any stronger it doesn't seem and (I think as I'm aging) my strength is not what it use to be but that makes sense to me. However what this will do for is help you maintain and keep what you have. Enjoy and if I can help in anyway with questions at all please contact me anyway you choose.💪

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Great plan Janelle, I got one when I first got home from hospital and used it everyday for about 18 months, it was a great tool and very useful. It's been used a lot less often over the last few years, I should sell it, but the cat loves to sit there and watch out the window.:lol:

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57 minutes ago, heathber said:

Great plan Janelle, I got one when I first got home from hospital and used it everyday for about 18 months, it was a great tool and very useful. It's been used a lot less often over the last few years, I should sell it, but the cat loves to sit there and watch out the window.:lol:

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I still feel we have an advantage over the general population with the mental aspect of this Covid crap. When we all stroked we lost any advantages we had anywhere in our lives over anything. So take note of this one. Unless you were lucky and your stroke was mild all of us strokers here have already had our lives turned upside down. I was told over 5 years ago I would have a "new normal" now, no choice. I don't like it when I see careless people who won't follow rules for the good of all of us (my in-laws). So maybe if this has got you down you could try to look at it like this. A mass "new normal" for the world doesn't seem to sit too well with many. We could not have ignored our "new normals" if we wanted to. Wouldn't that have been nice. All of a sudden how fast you can run or how hard you can kick a ball or hit one isn't going to be worth untold fortunes. That high place in society will be for teachers, med people and service folks and rightfully so..  

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Thanks Janelle! My sister-in-law and her husband are low 70's with 4 boys btwn 40 and 50. Good people and I thought smart enough to know better. I was a little disappointing.

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Willis and all of you yep I 100% get all of it. I too am not terrified, I too fall in that risk group and it's not my age lol, I do my part and roll my eyes at those who rebel. You are so right Willis, we had to accept our "new normal", rebelling was futile and I still love me and getting on with it was well a must to find peace. Now that does not mean I have no struggles but I take them as they come. It is surreal watching the world during this time. I'm happy I can be a part, see it and still relax and enjoy my life. Being at home I am great at lol. Heck I was excited about less humans out and about if I needed to get out myself. No such luck here but still Corona is one thing I'm not terrified of. I do pray that my family and loved ones are safe. So for now I am enjoying staying in and crafting, sewing, bird watching out the window in my back yard, painting watercolors a bit and praying that the kids down the street do not set off fireworks again! 🤯 Stay safe you guys! Wash your hands and mask up when needed (I prefer cute ones). 

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Yes, yes and yes to so many things the girl from the volunteer state said!  #1 Tracy your attitude is mine and we are lucky to see this for what (covid) actually is to our lives. I don't have to do the shopping or really much except watch my attitude and emotions. I've been told many times being my caregiver is not a big deal but if i'm mean and sobbing around it changes everything. I get that. Oh yeah outdoor chores on these 2 and a half acres, cutting grass, composting and a few fruit trees. There is always something and I'm thankful for that. Your crafts are a real blessing and paintings are so peaceful. My latest mantra: Be kind be gentle and be at peace with the universe. Continue to use and understand your advantage and sit back and watch the ones that don't get the seriousness of this try to ignore it and get around it.

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On 8/17/2020 at 11:29 PM, Willis said:

I meant "I was disappointed". However I know I was disappointing.  

Willis: repeat after me:

 

I never have been and never will be disappointing. 

 

Tracy my dear friend, you didn't mention kitty...is she ok?

 

💚👑

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We were in the woods in northern Michigan for our annual summer trip to my in-laws cabin on Higgin's Lake a few days back. Absolutely a beautiful area and one could walk out in the water a long way on sand in waist to chest deep water before it drops off. The last few years we (wife, daughter and 2 Grandsons) have gotten a place in the backwoods off the water. My son-in-law is usually too busy with work a isn't a big fan of the outdoors besides. The place in the woods has become my favorite place to be as the peace and quiet are hard to beat. The lake cabin has become too crowded for lodging over the years and this works out much better. So I didn't spend much time there for a few reasons. That is where I was disappointing. To them not me. Her 4 boys and their gals and all wanted to see me and I like that and I get it but their overall feeling is this is a hoax. So yeah I went down a couple times but stayed outside. I was disappointed, not in staying alone at my cabin but in the family and their attitude.

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large.963450933_20200811_2300112.jpglarge.20200811_224936.jpglarge.439825479_20200819_1215092.jpgQUOTE:  Tracy my dear friend, you didn't mention kitty...is she ok?

 

Janelle... Kitty is doing very well! She has had a surprise friend the last week or so. A kitten ran in when I opened my back door (it was 90+ F outside). I kept her inside and posted pics on all my local pet lost and found sites but no luck. So Kitty has been busy avoiding her lol and then this week Kitty has decided she is hers and grooms her and plays with her. 😊 I really need to find her a forever home but we have both enjoyed kitten energy in the air.

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7 minutes ago, Willis said:

I was disappointed, not in staying alone at my cabin but in the family and their attitude.

I very much relate. Thankfully not all but a small few have or at one time have judged me this way. All I can say is that I have learned the true value of inner peace and sometimes that does not involve other's opinions. My best lesson has been that I don't have to prove ANYTHING to ANYONE. I can still love the fools. I can close my eyes and imagine the serenity of your woodland getaway. I have nothing but happy feelings in my heart. Now this is what I seek! 

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6 minutes ago, HostTracy said:

I very much relate. Thankfully not all but a small few have or at one time have judged me this way. All I can say is that I have learned the true value of inner peace and sometimes that does not involve other's opinions. My best lesson has been that I don't have to prove ANYTHING to ANYONE. I can still love the fools. I can close my eyes and imagine the serenity of your woodland getaway. I have nothing but happy feelings in my heart. Now this is what I seek! 

You say the coolest stuff and have the right attitude in my opinion! I read that and thought "did I say that".

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40 minutes ago, HostTracy said:

Willis (or Bill) 😁 thank you we are kindred spirits! I call that a blessing! 

Agree and rare to find sometimes. God Bless!

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