Recently this blog has become mostly historical reporting on what we have been doing and what we hope to do in the future. This entry will be a bit different, musings and thoughts that just come along, so lets get on with it. Most of us have had lots of extra time as of late to just think about things, read books, catch up with old friends which is easy because you are sure they will be home, eat into the “honey do” list, etc, etc. well, I am no different so while I have been stroking my beard covered chin musing about the state of the world, I have also thought much about my life (now75) and how things worked out for me.
Well lets see, some worked out well for me. Two good lucky picks for wives. The first lasted 28 years before she passed, and now 19 years and counting with the second one. During my time with these ladies I have traveled to 30 countries and all 50 states. I have been nursed back from a stroke. I have lived my life dream of living in Northern Minnesota in the wilderness and fishing my summers away in a solo canoe. Both ladies have spoiled me rotten. Not sure what they got out of it, but since they stuck around I guess they got enough to keep them satisfied.
A comment from the first wife summed it up nicely. As the end was nearing and we both knew it, I asked her one day that since we can still travel at the moment, is there anyplace you would like to go or is there anything you still want to do? After a long pause, she looked at me and said “no, I think we have done it all”. I was dumbfounded but happy. She passed a few months later, finally at peace. I made a lousy bachelor and Lesley and I married 4 months later.
So far there has been no need to ask anything like that of Lesley. But her mum lived with us for the last three years of her life. One evening as she drifted off to sleep we heard her talking to God. We heard her say among other things, “God, I am ready to go, no regrets”. That was the second lady in my life I heard have such peace facing the future. As she spent the last five days with us in a coma, we confidently whispered in her ear, “it’s OK mum, you can go now, God is waiting for you”.
So where does this leave me? Well, still pondering. Yes life has had it’s great moments for me, a few wins where I was blessed enough to hopefully make a difference. Sadly, I can also recall times where I missed the opportunity or was, even worse, the actual problem or part of it. Hopefully I have learned from those failures and will attempt do better in the future.
Where to go from here, well I have decided to be more giving by nature. Sounds easy, but in practice the old spirit can rear it’s ugly head. A longtime friend of mine told be he carries 3-4 $100 bills in his wallet and his goal is to give them out every year as the spirit gives him the urge. I have not started that program, but am now always on the lookout for opportunities to do good things. Recently three children that lived next to us were abandoned by their parents. The great grand parents stepped in and took them. We were able to help and still do so from time to time as we can.
i tell you folks this not to garner praise but to alert us all that opportunities like this exist all around us if we but open our eyes and hearts.
I find the more I do, the more happiness I find. The more I realize it is not about me but someone else, the happier I get. My tipping has gone up. No longer do I worry about the exact percentage, but just do what seems right. Not trying to brag here, just share a source of joy I have found that we can all share in. I think with the state of affairs the world is in today, it would be a better place if more of us did these sort of things. Yes, we all have dark times and things we would like to be better, but if we look around we will not have to look far to find someone worse off than ourselves.
now it is time to practice my music I started a year ago. I am trying to put together a Christmas medley. That is one thing I would start sooner in life if I could live it over. I really enjoy it.
Well, the musings are over for today, let us all try this next year to try and find someone or something that needs our help. Bye for now.....