I didn't WANT to do it, I swear!!
Patrick and I decided to clean out the flower pots and flower bed today so that when we are ready to plant, the containers are also ready. They were full of dead plants and flowers.
The first few pots were easy, we just had to remove the dead flowers from the center of the pots, and we left the evergreen plants in there, as they are already starting to perk up for spring. We then moved on to the side of the house where the flower bed is. It is about 5' by 10' bed, and it had lots of remnents from last year's garden.
We started clearing out all the dead stuff, and it seemed never ending. What we were left with was several small patches of grass and some sticks sticking out of the ground. After surveying the bed, Patrick wanted to just gut the whole thing. I decided we should just dig everything up and start over since I have no idea what was planted, what was weeds, and how to take care of whatever started to grow since I didn't know what it was.
So we did it. We dug it all up. Over and over I kept asking God to forgive me, for I knew not what what I was doing. I'd dig up what looked like a blade of grass and find a little bulb on the end. I'd look at the dead sticks and start to pull, only to find a substantial root system existed.
I am going to burn for this sin against nature. The former owner would probably have a nervous breakdown if she knew what we did today.
I keep trying to convince myself it was the right thing becuase we would know what was planted and how to properly maintain it. I try to remind myself it is okay because now we get to choose what WE like intead of what the old owner liked.
Please tell me it is okay! My heart has been breaking all day!!!