:chat: This is the way I felt when I was at my Mom's with my sisters last week. We hadn't all been together for over a year. We told all the same old stories of childhood that always make my Mom laugh. It was a sad time, but we chose laughter over tears.
I haven't quite decided what this Blog will be yet. I am just going to write and it will take it's own form.
On Easter Sunday I took Bill to his parents home. I wasn't really invited. It is an odd situation when his family has been in my life for 38 years and somehow they feel I have not been doing my job as Caregiver.
How about their jobs as Caregivers. I was hurting a lot when I left him there. I needed to go to the Grocery-Deli to get some food for him while I was gone to my Mom's.
When I arrived at the store parking lot I got an overwhelming feeling of wanting to drink. I had to think about what my fellow AA friends have told me to do.
What are you thinking about? What are you feeling? Everything I was feeling and thinking about was how I resented his family. I needed to come to terms with those feelings before I could go into that store. Guess what it worked. I won this battle and I have another day of sobriety. I have another day of being the great Caregiver that I am. ( I do have just a few faults)
It is almost 1:00 am and I need to say goodnight. :hug: