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Feeling Crappy


l_klakring

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I just can't seem to get it together. Today has been the worst in a long time. I don't know that there is any weather coming; actually, it is suppose to rain in the next couple of days and Sunday we have a chance of snow flurries.

 

Recently, I have been having pain shooting up the back left side of my head, just like before my stroke. My whole left neck area was extremely inflamed this morning, it was so painful.

 

It kind of scared me. In the hospital, the drs. told my family that I have a 1% chance of having another stroke, along w/ the rest of the general population. But now w/ this inflammatory pain, I am wondering if they took into consideration my vein condition, where my veins keep growing and branching out. Does reason say that now I am older, the veins are not as elastic and pliable? That they would be thinner and more brittle?

 

What would this portend for the kids? They want me to get well and get out and start living my life on my own. What if this doesn't happen?

 

I have a plan to eventually start work and hopefully support myself in about a year's time. I haven't done anything to accomplish any of these goals. What is wrong w/ me? I just don't want to do anything any more. I need an "uumph," a jolt, something to get me re-started. Hopefully, this blog will shame me into action again. Take Care. LK

 

PS: I hope I can write "crappy" w/out getting into trouble.

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Dear friend,

 

First of all, you can use the word "crappy" all you wish. Have you contacted the doctor regarding how you are feeling? Please do so - we don't want anything to happen to you.

 

When you are feeling better/spunky again you will restart your work towards your goals.

 

(((hugs)))

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don't put so much pressure on yourself. there is no way you can put a time limit on your recovery time. I have been told that after you have a stroke you are 50% more likely to have another one than someone who has not had a stroke. Call your doctor now on the symtoms you are having. God bless and keep us informed on how you are doing

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i've decided to not put a time limit on my recovery, i now just think that it will come to those who wait. but please see your doctor to find out whats happening. we are getting the heat here in aussie so i know how the weather messes you arond. thake care

 

ken

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[so sorry that you are feeling crappy. maybe it is the weather - maybe you are recovering from your stroke at your own pace - just like all of us. please don't create more stress for yourself by setting deadlines. do the best you can and i bet your kids will be fine with that. if you are feeling real crappy - which is a great descriptive word - and you are not comfortable with your docs diagnosis - go back again - see a different doc - whatever it takes to get the answers you feel comfortable with. please don't be too hard on yourself - just do your best - know one can expect more. i hope you feel better soon.kathy

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