bartszatmary

Stroke Survivor - male
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About bartszatmary

  • Birthday 07/27/1960

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    I enjoy training dogs, fishing, art, gardening, I love God my wife my kids, and my dogs. My biggest goal to help other stroke survers. My biggest hates the stroke monster, prejustices

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    bart
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    maryland

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  1. Happy Anniversary bartszatmary!

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  5. My .wife left me. Im starting over. Im taking it easy. I M waiting to here from ssdi to keep house.
  6. I remember In rehab when I was told "I was high functioning" I almost puked. One day the smartest person in school, Bam! High functioning. What a blow, I could almost always say " Im the smartest person youll know" and it would be true until now. Im handicaped, like in horse racing. I thought about that, I liked it. Not disabled, I can, but slower. I was happy as I could be with that word. Today I was talking to my police cheif, and he said" giving me a handicap would be cheating the race must be even. Your challenged, you can its just more work". How think about it we must work with but fight our limititions and always strive for more. ( it must be right my wife agrees and she beat all the odds.
  7. I was washing clothes while they went sleding I did feel good and useful, like a good house husband! Then the machine broke down always some thing.
  8. Well this has nothing to do the tittle of this blog but it your eye. I think Im doing ok. Ive been living life as normal as I can get. I did miss out on the family going sleding. Its new being handicap. I m trying to forget that Im different Im getting better at it. Dont like it but living with it. Ill see what the next step is.
  9. I decided to take the weekend off. My wife and are having people over sunday for the game. We are steelers fans and our friends ravens its not there fault blame the parents.Lol We get flack being in maryland. We should have fun. Well Im off to enjoy my wife, family, and friends. But first Ill help Kelly get ready. Have a great weekend! GO STEELERS!
  10. I cant believe you work on cars. I have a hard time cleaning up the house. I forget get side tracked. I found my keys, had them 2 days lost them again. Oh well Im stil good with dogs if you need help.
  11. When life gets you down. You wish you were not here. "Its a Wonderful Life" I even have a loose thingie on our stairs. See I was depressed me whole life. For years I lived like its no tomorow. My life was meaningless. I always wished Id die. My 40th birthday I started to live Its new to me and I screwed up big time in 8 yrs. I had a chance sept 30 the chance I always wanted. I stoped beathing. I got to go where I always wanted. It was calm. I came back. Its a wonderful life. Ok its sucks sometimes so you its really wonderful. Take it from me. Clarence is right. Take from me and Ive been depressed for 40 yrs.
  12. I took a few days off. We had a party at the house. I had a bit to much wine but all had fun. This morn I was up at 700 am I did my phy exercises, taking a break my arms are shacky. After the blog work on on my hand, I use hair bands to work fingers, they cramp after but... no pain lil gain. But gain. I feel normal sometimes until I try a task, I am reminded, somethings are easier some not. The hard is the mind I read, Im a internet fool just to read and type, write on comp. I have been drawing and painting some. Im not good but Im new to water colors. If I cant work Ill become an artist. Better then non working slug. I did walk to the park. Cold and leg is cramped now. Im going to try some things with my hand. Well I have things to go.
  13. Im just not starting to care. As I lay me down to sleep I pray my Lord my soul to take......Uh ..I changed my mind Ill wait you never know it if can worse. Just want find out. Amazing what a little sleep will do.
  14. I dont remeber how to do that. I dont remember how to much.
  15. I Typed for 2 hours I lost 2 blogs I lose most this, this time I lose most of the text like I lost me. Well the Blog was about a Man his handicaps what he lost like the text and his wife and his feelings. I remember When Kelly was proud of me could see it when she introduced me. Now how she be proud now how could she be even happy how can she look at me and say Im glad I have Bart. Every time we go out I look at her watching out for me.how can a man be happy how can man not be angery all the time, Im sorry for my negitive feelings but how can I feel any different Im a burden just a burden to her my family everyone. Its not a pity party not at all I have delt with what happened to me. It sucks but Ill deal. But Im a burden just a burden how can I not be angery and not feel for my wife only part of her husband died and she has what is left can greave but not go on. Kelly I m sorry sorry for the grief in your life all of it. You deserved better. Your burden.