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Hi fred, you know I had alot of muscle pain too. they kept trying different drugs. I'm on Zetia for cholestrol & so far ok..........the pharm. said you have to try diff. ones, brcause you can end up with permanet muscle damage. I talk to a lot of dr. & pharmaisist to help me. so Dr. say try to take the pain. I said B.S. I also belong to Life Extension, it's free...........but boy do you learn alot about the cholesterol controversy. I take a supplement with my chol. pill & it has help me get my numbers down. Keep trying & good luck, I sure know how you feel. Good Luck.............. Jeanne in Ca

Hi Leah~ Where in AZ do you live? I 'am moving to a del webb in Surprise, maybe when we get there we can hook up, I too am weepy, doing the chat has help me exscape from thinking this a mistake & I want back from this twilight zone. but then reality comes in to remind me. I 'am afraid to be alone, since My stroke happen when I was driving, I am afraid to drive. I have my dark moments & good moments, so try & get on the chat room, it is a temporary escape. hope to chat with you. This alone time will show how strong you really are.............Best wishes! Jeanne in Ca.

Hello again, I just wanted to geve a quick update on my new shelter dog (Riley) who wanted to know how it went. What a pleasant surprise. He is cracking me up. He is a purebred they think. He small but thinks he's a wonder dog. He makes it known when we go out, he's going too. He also slept in his new cage all night. He really has a funny personality. Got to go, he's letting me know he wants toplay with his new little toy, I have to throw it, so he can get it & brings it back to me. he is now sitting nexts to me staring at me to hurry up. So life of (Riley) id a KEEPER!!! I think this breed is called a Rat Terrier , small, white with brown spots & big ears. jEAN

Thanks Asha, I have been reading your blogs, I hope to be where your now soon! You are a inspiratio! I will start today to enjoy myself. new Jean

Hi Ally, Thanks ffor your thoughts & sharing your experiences with me. I feel like the only person with this, but all I heard back gave a seccond look at myself (after a good cry) again. today is a new day. I'm going to save a dog & love it & try hard to get over this 1 day at a time. I promise!! i THINK i FOUND my help.........SO I'm putting on my Jeans & wait for the shelter to open. I will fine Jean again...............Bless you all

Thank you all for the welcome, It sure feels good for the understanding. I can't take antidepressants, I feel worse. I know I have to work this thru but when I have a bad day it stays with me. My kids are grown & won't go on iinternet. I have macho twin boys. 1 understands & another thinks I'm just a baby, I'am going to talk to him & leave him your messages to read if he wants. My daughter was with me when it happened & I think she feels it's like a cold .........your sick for a while & then you should be fine. You know I was a multi task out going person & now i woke up a old lady. I was like Suzanne Somers, in looks & personality. Now when I look in the mirror I see a scared olde person. I'm getting ready to get my new pet "Riley" I feel real good about this, I love dogs, I haven't had a dog since I lost my sheltie years ago. MY husband has been a good support. He read your comments too, I think it reinforced what I was telling how I felt, but for the fact I was such a strong person, now just a scared baby. I will try to embraced this a& enjoy my life more with you guys help when I fall down NOW & THEN, OK! tHANKS TO YOU WHO WROTE!!! PS aNN YOU MADE ME LAUGH & thats good jUST jEAN

Hello, I'm new here, so I'll try my best. I had a stoke 10/30/08 shopping with my daughter, just driving when I started to slur my speech, it only lasted a few min. & then when I got out of the car I could not walk. I was 911 to the ER. I was in total denial the first month because I look "normal" but I felt like 1/2 of me died. I had the doc. do 2 cat scans & they found I had 2 TIA earlier. I had moderate cholestrol & BP & was not concern to put me on meds until I had the stroke. I cried every day for months.......how this could happen to me. The dr. alwasys said I looked so good for my age(66) & was not on any meds so cocky me got slam hard. I went to a depression group where I live, but I still felt out of place, how could really know how I feel. everthing make me cry. My kids don't understand, my mother doesn't understand why I don't get over this NOW!. I feel after reaading some of you guys blog it's a process it all go thru. I understand make the best of what you got, but I'm crying as i'm writing this. BUT, I think I have found the right place to vent & not be ashamed of myself. I'am soooo scared of having another stroke. I eat healthy, I walk everyday, but I'm still depressed. I sure it gets better in time, but I feel like I'm mourning the loss of my old funny self. I never thought of death intil now. I'am scared when I go to sleep, but happier when I wake up. Tomorrow I am buying a dog I saw at the shelter. Thanks for letting me vent to you all, it felt good funky Jean in Ca