I am contemplating retiring, I have worked 37 years in the coal industry in the Human Resources arena. I have a very good job. However, with the PT being stopped, Oliver will need me to help him at home. My caregivers are getting tired of coming. My brother-in-law has been a God send, however, I think he is ready for a break as well. My other caregiver is paid well, but think he is ready to move on. I really think Oliver will do better with me home. The therapist gave us a home exercise program. I have rearranged the house so we can move the exercise equipment downstairs for convenience. I am hoping this will help. I know Oliver was getting tired of going 3 x a week for this past year. However, at least it got him outside and amongst people. I am so afraid he will now become a hermit and want to stay inside. I've mentioned going to a gym, however, we have all the equipment here so he doesn't see the point of a gym. He used to take care of everything while I worked, however now I can't even get him to wash the dishes and yes he could do this. I really don't know who is more depressed, me or him. If I even thought I would have to repeat this past year, I don't know that I would want to live. I am so glad to have this site so I can just vent. I don't discuss my feelings with anyone. I live each day with a smile on my face and pretend as if everything is good, it's the wee hours of the morning that I shed my tears. I love my husband with all my heart and will do anything to help him recover and enjoy life again. Each of you are an uplift to my heart. Thank you so much for listening to me and helping me thru. Happy New Year! Judy