GreenQueen

I've just started watching this show called Manifest. One guy said to this girl: Don't waste your miracle on your pain. I really wanted to share that here, and Paul's thread seems the perfect place. Yes, we definitely need to grieve, and accept our lives as they are now. I'm pretty sure that most days, I've reached the acceptance stage. I don't want to waste time wallowing, I want to enjoy the miracle of my life. Paul, as you continue your journey to acceptance, we are along for the ride.

Awesome Alan. Doing something you love and being paid! So fantastic you are doing stroke support. We all know how vital that support is.

Tracy that's the best news of bad news... Many prayers for your dad, stepmother, you and family.

Thankful for Ryder's recovery. Very grateful for many prayers for Ryder, his family and medical team.

My beautiful kids...I couldn’t be without them. I rely on them too much, but I know they are going to be amazing adults. Carrah had her year 12 ball on the weekend. Connor was awesome; she needed help doing up her dress etc, all the things one handed mum couldn’t do. She suffers terrible anxiety, and the week leading up to the ball was full of tears and panic attacks, so I’m very proud of her for actually getting herself together and getting to the ball! She chose the green dress, much to my delight. Guess what colour I wore to my year 12 ball?? Being 30 years ago, I had huge shoulder pads in my dress! Things have changed!

Tracy, yes, I certainly do think I will go back to counselling. I am trying to find time. I know that sounds like an excuse, but with everything else going on...I’m not comfortable being ‘first’ in the family. I need everyone else to be at their best before I concentrate on me. I’ve always been that way...can’t see it changing...unfortunate or not, that’s how it is.

Exactly Kelli, starting from scratch. Not entirely sure if it's always worth it.

Hello Ann, and welcome. There are definitely people here with memory issues. You are not alone. Looking forward to sharing the journey with you.

My counsellor became my friend. His wife and children also. When they left town I was devastated, but we still keepin contact. I haven’t seen anyone since. Still in two minds about that.

I'm glad they were on to it Heather, but I think that goes exactly with what I am saying. You were sent to a psychologist only after they found you crying. I think it needs to happen from the outset, counselling. Not just when something rears its ugly head.

Absolutely Tracy!! The kids hate it when I'm on a cleaning rampage! Tidying up left me very tired today. A real catch 22.

Me too, Tracy. My fatigue is through the roof at the moment. Yesterday I forced myself to do jobs. A bomb had gone off in the kitchen. I slept better knowing the house wasn't such a state. Will have to try that trick again today!

I've pondered over this question for a while. When I was in the hospital, it was constant OT, physio, tests, doctors, student doctors...I was never alone. I had no time to cocoon myself away from the world and process what was happening. When I got back to town (I was sent to perth) it was Day Therapy Unit, doctor, home visits from everyone in town linked to stroke support, back to work part time (I tried...😥) kids, Skype with the Neuro.... I had a meltdown in the Carpark at the hospital. No wonder. Things do go better. But I had no time to listen to that. Unfortunately. I know time is crucial, but in the long run, wouldn't some time with a grief counsellor or stroke support be beneficial?