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  • Birthday 12/02/1971

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    Improving my organizing and planning skills, spending time with my cat "Kitty", spending time with my family, being involved in my local stroke support group, the brain, and giving support to other stroke survivors or anyone that i can.
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  1. HostTracy

    Paul I have been rereading your thread and it made me think of something I've learned recently. You stated: I am trying to find things to be grateful for, and while there are many of them, I'm finding it hard to feel gratitude. This is such a huge delemna. Especially when everything around you is not in the best positive light. I know right after I was cognizant after my stroke... My reality was excruciating. Every part of it from physical to mental to relationships to time to perception to reasoning to opening my eyes to using my brain for anything. I was very paranoid, scared, and had so much anxiety I could feel it rise in my body, up my chest, up my neck, through my jaw. I was afraid my brain or my heart were going to explode. First I am being absolutely dead serious. I had a copy of the serenity prayer and chanted it over and over and over. My fingers didn't write well at all (due to dysmetria a type of ataxia) but I fumbled around until I found a notebook and pen. That day I started to do something on my own (I still had no idea what was wrong with me). I wrote 5 things each night that I could remember that made me feel grateful. Sometimes I wrote right after something happened because I would forget. I barely wrote one word things at first. Like: kitty, food, bath, bubbles, sun. Then 2, 3, 4 and then small statements. Like: went potty, took bath, write things, good soup...took a bubble bath, sat in chair for 10 minutes, awake for 20 minutes, Hailey read to me...my kitty curled next to me and purred, I sat in the living room with family for 15 minutes, my dessert was yummy. Somehow...someway this little thing helped me. Today I still have severe anxiety disorder with panic attacks. It can get in the way of many things and severely limits me. My therapist (psychologist) suggested I start a notebook using the GLAD method. Essentially very similar to the gratitude writings I had done. G=gratitude... L=learned... A=accomplished... D=delight. So every day i write a new GLAD in my notebook. The key is that it does not need to be big or lengthy. Example Day(write your GLAD about your day) : G-grateful for my mom L-learned a new word game A-accomplished washing my hair D-delighted when I watched kitty videos. If your day is ever like one of mine then another example might be: G-my bed L-patience A-brushed teeth D-my kitty. Some days you can be ver descriptive others maybe not but the good thing is it doesn't matter. Sometimes I am grateful for my bed, sometimes I only brush my teeth, and then sometimes I can write down several things I have gratitude for, accomplished, learned, or felt delight in on a day. Go by how your day is today. 🙂 Anyway, I just wanted to share... I've had many days where I feel the same as you said.
  2. Deigh I will be sure to try my best at sending out an invite a few minutes before chat. I usually do but I have forgotten before. Are you interested in the afternoon chat or evening chat. I know that's not an easy answer but I believe it is about 16 hours ahead of EST right now. I think I read right. 🤔 Maybe that will help 🙂.
  3. HostTracy

    Kelli I am so overjoyed for little Ryder, his parents, and his mimi and all those who love him. Wonderful news.
  4. HostTracy

    I am so blessed to say that my dad is diagnosed with Lymphoma. It's still serious and not staged yet but treatable with a much more positive outlook. Thank you Jesus! My heart feels much better. My throat however really hurts. I was diagnosed yesterday with strep throat. I had to get two painful shots and take 10 days of penicillin. Ouch!!! 😭😷 One steroid shot and I have only had 3 hours of sleep since yesterday morning 🙄. But I am so happy about my dad's news. Thank you all for your positive thoughts it means so much to me. ❤️
  5. So true Heather. I forget sometimes...i am one of the lucky ones or just in the right place at the right time. Deigh I feel your irritation.
  6. HostTracy

    🙏🙏🙏 Still praying for baby Ryder.
  7. Deigh I haven't even thought of that. Yes spoiled 😕 unlimited fiber here and i remember when we also had a limit. It added up quick. Yuck! I wish I had a better option. Got put my thinking cap on.
  8. HostTracy

    Oh Janelle I completely understand. Completely.
  9. HostTracy

    Janelle such a proud mama moment. Just look at your Carrah shine! Beautiful! What a wonderful, caring young man and very handsome! Gorgeous pictures! I'm so glad Carrah could enjoy her ball... I know her struggle. So proud of all of you! 😊
  10. HostTracy

    Asha it is...those of us who attend really enjoy this effort together.
  11. HostTracy

    Oh Kelli thats great news. I just read this. Prayers he is much better very soon. 🙏
  12. HostTracy

    Hugs Heather. Thank you.
  13. HostTracy

    Alan thank you so much.
  14. HostTracy

    Oh my goodness I hopped off not long after I wrote. Hugs thank you.