Many days I feel the same way but 9 months is still a very short time. Some day you will get up and find that you can do something new and get so excited about. Try to do something different every day and maybe it will surprise you. Hang in there. Do you take meds for depression? xanax helps a lot for me. You will be in my thoughts and prayers every morning. God bless and keep the faith, a time will come when you will feel acceptance and live in the new life God has for you. It is very hard when having bad days but good days will be joyous
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