I have had my stroke 17 years ago. I have never had good relationships with people ever since. I shy away from people and especially to those who were no threat all to me. As a result, The people I have known have turned out to be abusers in every possible way to me (sexual, religous, social and etc.). Now, at 33, I have never known how to make friends, I don't trust anybody and I am so depressed about my whole life being ruined by the stroke.
Some of my friends are married and have lovely houses and children, but I wonder why. It is easier to abuse (at least sexually) someone who is handicapped and this is all I remember about relationships.
Sometimes I wish I hadn't made it past the ER doors.
Do any of you ever have a lot of depresseion over friendships you have lost or the inability to make friends because of your stroke or how people have reacted to you and your new disability?