RSS Feed For Stroke Survivor Support Forum http://www.strokeboard.net Wed, 16 May 2012 13:28:44 +0000 60 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22636 t's better late the never to begin cognitive therapy. I've heard " I should have started this years ago"
Well I am in the right place at the right time. I've begun to see how negative thoughts can really change the dynamics of ones recovery. Sounds like a no brainer.
Well I thought that too. When you "think something" it may cause feelings. I used this example to HostBruce last night: if you say "I feel horrible that you have to work late"
Well physically I don;t feel horrible. Maybe Sad.

If I feel that my husband isn't trying hard enough.. I can't feel he isn't trying hard Instead maybe I'll say. I "think' he isn't trying hard and that makes me sad.

I still don't grasp it all yet.

But Having to change thinking and feelings..... I'm exhausted.

I always knew thoughts can cause physical changes in your body but never put a second thought to it. ]]> Wed, 16 May 2012 13:28:44 +0000 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22636 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22618
Gavin]]> Mon, 14 May 2012 05:58:41 +0000 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22618 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22608 I went and lut some shorts on and sat down in the family room my.los preasure was high and I took my medications I just passd it off It I do have a do tods appointment next week that I'll mention it.
When I had my stroke I awoke to dint my right side didn't work right arm or legs and walking was ot possible.
Not realy scared at all just like wow this is wierod
But this after walking I for he room and stank f there to just colasp was a bit scary]]> Sat, 12 May 2012 02:12:31 +0000 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22608 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22601 If you are really sensitive, please don't read. I haven't been on for a while again. When I get depressed, or I have another TIA, my kids sense it, and they take advantage of me being in a weakened state. It gets very discouraging at times. I can't stop the TIA's from happening, so there are times when I feel like a less adequate mother to my kids. My son just turned 13, so he thinks he knows best, and he thinks he knows everything about everything. He has lately been yelling at me, defying me, and ignoring request's to help out around the house. It's been pretty bad around the house lately in every way possible too. I don't feel happy, I have a really bad sinus infection which caused me severe migrane headaches, I still have the TIA's, we recently lost a dear family friend that passed away, I'm really depressed right now, my kids constantly fight, the house is out of control, and there are days where I honestly wish Heavenly Father would've just taken me with a really severe stroke. I know that may sound horrible, but that's how I truly feel. I don't know that anyone would have advice, or anyone that can relate to my situation. I'm so worn down from everything, and I just don't know how much more I can handle or take.

I'll admit that two nights ago my son had gotten so bad that I yelled right back, this is something I've tried not to do, because I wasn't treated very well growing up by my parents, and I don't want to be a horrible parent to my kids. I just had taken my son's verbal abuse for so long that I exploded from holding it all in.

I'm still exhausted from being sick, and I've had two TIA's within this last week. Each TIA seems to take more energy from me. If you all are wondering if I have family members who could help out I do, but our counselor has ordered that my parent's not have any contact with my kids. My parent's have been pretty bad to my kids and I, so they are NOT an option in all of this. I just don't know which way to turn, or how to handle things around here. I feel like I'm wasting space, and that my kids would be better off without a disabled mother. I don't know what else to say than that.

LSL]]> Thu, 10 May 2012 15:37:01 +0000 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22601 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22547 i hope everyone out there has an awesome case manager too.]]> Mon, 30 Apr 2012 20:37:22 +0000 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22547 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22541
thanks Ken]]> Sun, 29 Apr 2012 23:33:56 +0000 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22541 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22535
Finally, after several months, I was able to get in to see a specialist in Denver (6 hours drive from here) and he took a look at the cat scan and gave me some memory tests and by noticing the pattern of my memory problems, plus what he saw on the CAT Scan, was able to tell me that I had had a stroke in a specific noun-finding area of my brain. Since then an MRI showed the same thing. I am trying to re-train my brain to rermermber names, including of people I know fairly well and can remember their life stories, but not their names! I still work as a private mental health practioner which I enjoy but the book-keeping and organizing way much harder for me. Another thing I notice is that when I get stressed as I did recently doing some 3-week travelling in Latin America that on the complex flights home I just lost it! I couldn't think straight! I felt OVER-WHELMED and over-emotional!!, I couldn't find anything in my luggage etc. --just kind of had a"melt down" Even during the first day or 2 home, I couldn't remember where things were in my own home like where I kept various fitchen utensils.

So that summarizes my stroke experience and I am interested to know if there are others out there who have had this type of stroke and also whether others find themselves having these spells where their thinking-ability and emotinal stability just goes down the tubes for awhile.??? I appreciate this space to share my story and welcome any comments from others.]]> Fri, 27 Apr 2012 21:10:07 +0000 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22535 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22528
Curious...

What other medications are available as a sleep aid? Real ones that ork, not herbal mumbo jumbo. I need an alternative that knocks me out like Ambien used to.

When you do sleep and dream, any of you dream about doing things you cant? I often dream of running, or performing a task that is otherwise impossible for me the other 16 hours of the day.

Share your neatest stroke dream?

When I first had mine, I had a crisp black and white dream. I was in what was supposed to be a beach, but it was a wide dust area, like a drained lake in a desert. Everyone was wearing white cloths, that moved in the wind, but it wasn't cold. The ground was covered in small round stones, maybe half the size of a dime, all were either a gray or dark white color. There were man people around me, some standing near others talking, others alone. I was alone. People seemed to move in all different directions, like a ground escalator. No one tried to walk, but we moved. Every time I got closer to someone, I would keep going or change direction. I was never able to talk to anyone or move...

I had that dream while in the ICU, I didn't leave that bed for three weeks, could barely move when I was awake... think it might have been my subconscios going "What the heck just happened??"

I had one other re-occuring dream, this one is the best because of the humor. Ok, I know we all had this.. You're relaxing at your pimped out medical Hilton after your stroke and say you're in rehab, or even at home and you hav e to use the rest room. Technically, they REALLY want to help us, right? Who wants a stroke survivor on the floor with their pants down? Well, I was really stubborn and refused assistance in this area. So! My brain decided to punish me for being that stuborn. I would dream that I was trying to relieve myself at a public restroom and would lean far left or far right when trying to go. I never feel over, or lost footing.. I was a drunking kind of swaying while you go pee. Colors were always dark browns with some dark reds. (I never dream in full color or of peple I know.)

Anyhow, I hope anyone up this late has some amusement and laughter from my post. Meds are starting to kick in... I am a silly drunken flirt when they do, I have friends who call just to talk to me as the twilight hour of being awake approaches, meds in full swing.. Im told its good entertainment.

Cheers!

Gavin]]> Thu, 26 Apr 2012 08:26:04 +0000 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22528 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22512 Mon, 23 Apr 2012 23:43:18 +0000 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22512 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22496 now i am babysitting him.....easter monday he was screaming in pain....jumped me right out of my sleep found him holding his chest asking for an ambulance....turns out he is lucky to be alive he had pulmonary embolism clots in both lungs.....1 week in intensive care and now home.....trying to teach him about coumindin nothing was explained to him at the hospital and his 1st inr was 6.7...yikes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sat, 21 Apr 2012 00:11:12 +0000 http://www.strokeboard.net/index.php?showtopic=22496