newlease

Stroke Survivor - female
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About newlease

  • Birthday 05/28/1947

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  • Stroke Anniversary (first stroke)
    07-01-2002
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    Marcia
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  1. Yes it is getting totally out of control and the anger is exponentially increasing which does not help matters. Never thought to see this country in such depression with a man who has not understanding of the chaos he has unleashed on this country and the world as well. Fortunatlly your have smarter leaders. We had reasonable ones but not ilike this person who cannot say one kind thing to anyone but himself day in and day out while people are dying around him. How this happened is behind my comprehension except no one was aware of the extent of what a sociopath can do or how he thinks. The psychiatrist wrote a book for the senate to warn them before he went on the podium but they did not listen. Too large population of totally unaware citizens full of many outside influences to confuse the situation and he capitalized on the situation. People think think this is not as bad as it seems, thanks to the president but I know different as it is obvious from the beginning when the country was finally informed. I hope you can get to see your parents soon. I know that just be so hard on you. I am hoping I will get to see my family members again as ow they are quarantined in other states. Take good care and I will send good energy to them opening up your ability to see your folks.
  2. Janelle and Heather, It is upsetting as there is a deficit at the top for making sense to those who need guidance instead of attack motives, using the pandemic as a political weapon. The governors, for the most part, are trying to keep us safe, especially in our state. I suspect this recent infection was purposeful, which is extremely upsetting just like our major forest fires. We have a deficit at the top which makes me feel like we have an "unfit" doctor who forgot to get his education to operate a country. Anyone who cannot understand is lacking in empathy or compassion for humanity and suffering a major mental deficit. I agree with Heather, I feel the same way regarding the nasty people who promote deception and ignorance. Deductive reasoning is needed here and the hope that common sense is finally gaining for the health of this country and our standards. Deductive reasoning is lacking here. I try to lay low and make some avenues to help change where I can but is it hard to tolerate ideas lately. I know most people are unaware of reality in this fear based country or just the opposite people who are so totally naive to reality until they suffer a loss of a loved one. Hope you all stay safe and healthy. You all deserve a quality of life and have worked hard to gain yours back. Keep up your work on this forum as you are both helpful wonders to so many on this forum. Take good care. Share any great ideas of how I can be helpful both here and abroad.
  3. Steve is truly an inspiration to all stroke victims and such an aide in promoting healing globally. Thanks, you are truly loved.
  4. Heather, So sad that the area has been increasing due to lack of following the need to stay safe and take requested precautions. It happened today in the largest trauma hospital in the state and invected large wings of the hospital. It is a large country truama center and so many are infected and they do not know how the units were contaminated. It is either carelessness but the dangerous groups have been causing a lot of havoc in our country. This whole situation makes me feel, like I am sure many feel in my country and other stroke victims in other countries. Stroke made me feel totally helpless as I am sure it did for many or us. Some for months and some for years thereafter, but others for many years of little or sporadic recovery. Think we all can empathize in some way how so many are feeling in the world. Perhaps better than most who work with trauma. Hope you and everyone on here are fairing well. So sorry, still not sure how to maneuver the blogs or even a new post as perhaps that would have been better. Honestly, I do not feel safe in my own country due to other things than the virus, for the first time time in my life, which makes life a lot harder. I also felt unsteady on a forum when I know very few folks. Fortunately you kind folks who have known me and those who did not responded and that gave me courage. Thanks one and all.
  5. Perhaps a full spectrum bulb or a SAD light when you are reading for a half hour or so.. I have one in the office that was super cheap and has an ionizer connected to it. I daily just use the ionizer but the right is there when I feel light starved. My cats always knew where the full spectrum bulbs were and fought to sleep under that light when there were others in more comfy places. It was uncanny. Also we had a psychiatrist using offices when were were in staff meeting and he would always pick my office when he had used other offices, but then I had them put in my ceiling lights, he would go in my office. I never told him why, It was just fun to know the results. I cannot remember if I ever did tell him. haha. I also take Phosphate Serine when it gets too gloomy, It is used for Seasonal Affective Disorder as I live in a rainy area and SAD is common here. Also take D K, and zinc to help with low sunlight. Hung up on Lipids for the virus as that was recommended to me from a friend in the UK. I rarely recommend oral anything except for the sun and cirus concerns but only when approved by the docs as many of mine have recommended all I mentioned her, including the light. Sorry, it I is like a woman on speed, this writing obsession. Probably being alone too much makes it worse. I get so lonely when I am home.
  6. Oh, sorry for your quarantine from you Mum! It must be hard on both of you. It is bad sign for our times but locking into your past joys with each other might help get you through the. hard times. Know what you feel, being cooped up. Never liked to sleep much and fight it as a need so as not miss anything. Notice now I just love wallowing in bed to stretch and cozy up to the linens for soothing self, as if I am almost regressing into a need to be nurtured, if only from the linen. Notice if I do not have a purpose, I get worse, no matter what the season. I dread our winter. The forest fires made the last signs of Summer awful in an area that is known for fresh air. and beauty. Last month that was sabotaged here. The ocean air brought the smoke back onto the continent for the first time since I lived here. Last year we had some from Canada but this was from the US coastal forest fires. All this beauty ruined throughout the entire coast. Ancient trees ruined. Makes one pause but the mountains are still glorious. Hope Springs eternal and you enjoy yours soon.
  7. Thanks. Missed the folks on here, too. Wish I could not take my self so seriously but will work on it. I do know that so many people are just beginning to think like a survivor and stroke victims have a stronger understanding than so many. Was doing a grief group with my dean of the school I was finishing who kindly agreed to do a lecture to the seniors at the center. She started out by saying she could see it in the faces of those in the audience who had experienced loss as she looked around the room. So it does not matter since the disguise merely protects me when I need it to but otherwise those who are victims of trauma will perceive a connection. In past few years in my work I have realized this is called neuroception and almost all stroke victims have this skill. Perhaps this forum keeps us, in some way, as. a reminder we are not alone in this newly quarantined world. Take good care and so glad to be back and hear how well you are coping. It give me hope when mine waxes and wanes.
  8. Becky, That was so kind. Will keep you in mind when my fingers are racing and the mind spins out. It is like music. Played a piano since I was four years old, got a masters couseling and also in piano and music therapy. Used both endeavors for 28 years to help people. When I had the stroke I was not able to play well, as readily. The counseling was not gone but the music was. My recent speed made me decide to try again to try to play all the music that sits on my piano reminding me of the loss. I think it is interesting how life is always evolving. Thanks for you message. I will hold fast to my dreams. Hope you eyesight improves. Enlarging my screen helps me when it gets hard to read so I do not lose my place. I missed this forum as people on here always help inspire me. Was losing inspiration until a friend on here reminded me that I needed to get back on line.
  9. Deigh, BTW, love the pix. You look like a real musician!! Need to play the part in your performances.
  10. I miss being a senior member as I once was. Feel demoted but then it is only fair due to my inability to do the new technology.. haha
  11. Will, I liked your posts and learned a lot about you and that is why I could tell you about the gal in Florida. I get a lot of everyones posts especially when my eyes are not tired.
  12. Heather, I will look into the blogging. Have to get on with my taxes which push me into yet another stroke. Life in American is like having a stroke all over again. This is probably why I need to avoid all forums as my mouth is not silent with truths as I sincerely think this is what adds to repression that cause the lurching into the nervous system overtired thus causing the fear to jeopardize the brain transmitters. My eyes when I read what I write wear me out and this is bad for a forum unless I can get to slow down my pacing. Miss all of you most profusely. Lookin forward to hear what new exercises you have done as your PT are so good. I finally found one that knows her stuff and then the virus shut us down somewhat. I look forward to going back to do some cranial sacral work soon.
  13. Deigh, I do the same thing but seem to forget it when I am writing. That is why my own entries bore me to death. I edit them but that takes even longer. I do think this has a lot to do with the stroke of long ago as I actually feel spastic when I try to slow down. It was actually what they told me when the paralysis was waking up that the faster I walked would be a problem in recovery. Even though that made sense it seemed to make it more difficult to walk, so I know the motor neurons were really confused in the repair work they were being forced to do with my speed and also not secure as time showed. I do it I my writing and that is really due to the music piano playing. I do not now how to slow down the fingers. It would be great if you had my finger speed and I had you reserved gait perhaps when I walk. Kind of like rubbing the tummy and tapping the head. My body an do that but the walking and typing have their own rhythm and then I fall or fail. Timing, like in music. Prelude to the Afternoon of a Fawn needs to play in my head when I am typing or walking. Did it again.