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I am so happy like on Christmas morning. I rode my bike today. The day was sunny and warm. The snow has melted and most of the roads were dry. I didn't go far, but the thrill to be out and have some freedom again was uplifting. This is exactly what my mood needed. The winter blahs getting to me. My husband wasn't too happy about the idea, but agreed to it anyway (I thsnked him for stepping out of his comfort zone). I made sure I was home when I said I would be. I hope everyone gets out to enjoy spring. I think it is here. I hope for good, but in Minnesota you never know!

My hubby fixed, hopefully, my trike today. He was sble to straighten the chain guard. He attached it. He wants me to wait until tomorrow to ride, so he is home if I have trouble. I am strongly wanting to go this afternoon. It is supposed to rain tomorrow evening. Don't know how much longer will have nice weather. Other news: I have had 2 home OT therapy. We focused on doing laundry and cooking. I haven't heard back from her. I am guessing the insurance denied more therapy.I am waiting to hear. I am hoping she will call and we set more visits. I want some help right siding the laundry. How to determine clothes that look the same inside out and right side out. I also want to work more using the stovetop. Well, I am going biking. I'll let you know if it is fixed.

Well, I bought a trike in May. It has been wonderful. I have been going all over my town. I even go shopping with it. Did all the back-to-school shopping riding bike. Two of my kids love it! My middle child doesn't want to be seen with me on my trike, she is embarrassed. I try to ride everyday, even if just to local gas station for a soda and treat. I have lost 5 pounds and feeling much better. Getting out helps my depression and the exercise has helped my balance and energy level. I am not looking forward to the winter. What will I do then? Please help me brainstorm some ideas to get out of the house safely without having to call for a ride from friends. I have been asking for rides so much that I feel guilty. Yesterday I broke my bike. My shoelace got caught in the chain. I was able to pull it out, but broke the chain guard off part way. Called the hubby to bring a screwdriver to just remove it cxompletely. I really bent the guard and can't get it back on. I am afraid to ride without the guard on. I had trouble when my shoelace was stuck the first time. I was lucky not to fall. Don't want to try again might not be so lucky. I am thankful this didn't happen during the summer or fall. I can wait to fix it until spring, but now what to do?

Well, still not feeling well today. I guessed I pushed myself too hard. I slept late and then tried to nap( my usual routine) Started getting a headache so I couldn't sleep. Not feeling well when my ride came so I could get to church to volunteer. Thought it would do me good to get out. Well started feeling vry hot and headache getting worse. I took it easier than usual. Only there 2 hours and decided to leave early. Called Mom to get a ride home. She came and picked me up. I vomited in her car on the way home. Her new car( well 1 year old) I tried to be careful. I was holding a bag of her library books. Kept thinking not on the books. All of it landed on me. I was OK until I got out of the car. Touched door to get out and unbuckled seat belt. Both were dirtied in the process. I felt much guilt. My kids were wonderful. They helped cleanup the car and brought me clean clothes in the bathroom where I was taking a shower, collected my dirty clothes and started washing them. I felt much better then. Went to bed. Laying there started thinking about the last couple days. Teouble seeing out of my left eye yesterday, the headaches I have been having lately, not being able to sleep, vomiting. I was convinced I was having another stroke. Planned my packing list for the hospital and thinking who I would call to be with the kids. Guess I didn't have another stroke (thank goodness) Here I am collecting my thoughts. Wrote a small grocery list for hubby to buy in the morning ( 7-up, popsicles, etc) Wrote out my list to do. Basically teying to write things down so I could stop 5hinking about them. Even wrote my hospital packing list. Hopefully won't need it, but ready if I do. I decided I would get a trike and ride where my husband thinks would be OK. The freedom and exercise will be good for me! Headavche still here, but feeling better, even hungry! too bad I cannot get a snack. I forgot to set something aside. I am locked in the basement at night(bedroom, bathroom, family room (with computer, small fridge) Oh well, hopefully sleep comes soon! No stroke so far tonight. Now I am hyper sensitive. I am sure you know what I mean!

Today I received some blood test results. I haven't been feeling well lat month or so. Went to my GP yesterday. Blood test for Thyroid, cholesterol, Ammonia, Vit D. I still fee foggy, tired, disoriented. The tests came back good, except my Vit.D. is VERY low and my triglycerides are High. I was given a script Vit D and told to cut back on high fat foods and lose weight. I was doing so well a couple months ago and have to get myself back there! I was outside more each day than before my stroke. I did minoryard work, like picking uyp pine cones and the never ending dog droppings. I also stasrted playing ball with my dog again. He was so happy!!!!! I also started walking to stores in my area. Usually 2 or so miles each way. The way home is difficult, I stopped one time on the way home to try to get a ride, but couldn't reach anyone, made it home walking. My new thought is getting a trike. I had done some looking after my first stroke, but I was able to get driving again soon after. This time feels different. I think physically I could drive, but I am more foggy and disoriented this time and very easily frustrated. I don't feel safe for me to drive. I would really like to, but I want to be safe. So am I good to do trike? Gotta think about that.

This is great! I haven't been able to post for a long time! I can post sgain and I am happy. Done for now. I will be back soon

How did my life get so mixed up? I am lost and am trying to grab my life back. My husband tries so hard and means well. I fell out of bed, so he took my bed and now I sleep on a mattress on the floor. I was sleep walking because of my sleep med, so he locks me in the lower level of our house at bedtime. I have my bedroom, bathroom and family room with a TV and computer. He has taken control of our money. He transfers and keeps all money out of our joint account so I can

This is a test to try and add a new blog Brice

Today is Feb. 22 entry by Brice to see if her blog can be edited. Well, there I sit on the bathroom floor. The headache comes in three stabbing points. I sit and cry "OH NO!!!! not again." I slowly feel the effects of this stroke slowly. No feeling in my foot, then leg, then hand, arm. and then face droops. I feel like I have a fat lip. I sat banging my foot against the floor and slapping my leg hoping to feel it. I can't. My husbasnd comes in. He doesn't know what to do. I don't want to go to the hospital. Maybe if I don't go and confirm this stroke. It will go away. I don't want to hear the dr. tell me I had another stroke. My husband calls my mom. She begs me to go to the hospital for her. I go and yes. I had another hemorrhagic stroke. Next to the same area as last time. Not as bad though. Many tests as you know. I had two angiograms!.. I hate those. The pain from them. I did it hoping to find the reason for my strokes. The docs. Don't know why. So how do I prevent them? I know I need to lose weight. I have been watching carefully what I eat. and walking more. Stiull no weight loss. I will just have to keep trying!!!! I am in out patient rehab. The feeling is coming back. YEH!!!! I am home doing my MOM things (I think this is the best rehab)except driving and cooking. I want to start cooking again. Been working on it at rehab. My husband is very protective and doesn't want me cooking yet. How do I get him to let go a little? Went to the pain clinic. Disappointed. The doc only recommends nerve block to help. I exlained I was looking more for non-medication, like biofeedback and accupuncture. He said to set-up an appt. for biofeedback. He doesn't think accupuncture would help my types of headaches.

Caged Bird, I have a little of pessimissim and optimisim. I am pessimistic that I will not recover to my desired level. My optimisn is that I will recover as much as I am able. I continue PT, OT and ask them to challenge me hard I WANT to recover!!! I think practicing and repitition is helping me regain use of my affected side. I am very stubborn. I will not give up! Do what is right for you. I can't tell you what is right for you. I only know what is right for me! Wishing you the best of luck with your road ahead. Beth