I have asked myself that same question.....I have even asked myself if I would be better off being more physically disabled then mentally disabled. Is the grass greener on the other side? I don't know, I am colorblind to greens and reds. I am beginning to understand we are unique in every way, as it should be. I am trying to prioritize my appearance and I am trying not to care what others think if I am normal. There is no game who is better looking, there is no winner who is more normal and who isn't.....what is normal by the way. Having self respect, and confidence in your self and abilities is normal. I hope this makes sense.I can confuse myself at times, which is normal for me.