SassyBetsy

Stroke Survivor - female
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About SassyBetsy

  • Birthday 10/10/1963

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  • Stroke Anniversary (first stroke)
    05-20-2014
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  • First Name
    Pam
  • State
    CA

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  1. The staff here have left dropped like flies since new owners bought this facility. The remodel is stark white and florescent white lighting. Like a 1950 hospital or asylum sanitorium. UGLY staff canceled for work unhappy short. I cried when some left. I sobbed in one woman's arms. She was BF. Many went to other jobs and part time here so see sometimes. Others threatening to go. SO SAD I FEEL ALONE.
  2. Yes it is me Queen!! Yes I have survived cardiac problems now. AS IF STROKE WASN'T ENOUGH LOL! but I don't have the heart to start in a new support group. I have missed u all so but I was not keen on using mobile...now I am. I hope I can meet up with friends again! IM BACK
  3. Yes we do indeed have to be content with t he blessings we have. Thanks for the welcome back. When I got lonely I knew where to come running home. It was a shock to hear about Steve. God bless him for this website.
  4. Hello old friends! I recently had to reset my password because I forgot and on new device so I was redirected to do that fine. I would wonder if they are making their log ins correctly??
  5. My name is SassyBetsy because I love Betsy Johnson fashion designs except creepy skulls,especially my obsession with purses. I was on this message board ,chats blogs constantly and it saved my life. I have been away. I do not know why.part oof the reason is my phone is what I use instead of my tablet..because the charging cords are different. I started gaming. I had stents put in my heart many times...I ha b e 12 now. They said I would not survive a bypass. I had edema probs,kidney probs,and right now I am fighting to relearn to walk again even tho my pain meds are reduced by half and the CPSin my right leg is daily average 8 on the pain scale. I have made friends with pain. I fought to have therapy three times per week, but I get out of bed daily, stand, walk a bit. I want to walk again. I had covid that sent me to the hospital then the following year despite vaccination I got omnicron Covid and back to the hospital. I got the humaneumovirus after that. The worse thing about it is my CPS in the hospital because staff does not understand it and the pain clinic does not come over unless the doctor invites a consult. Next May 2024 is my 10 year anniversary. I lie awake wondering if I will make it. I still live in a SNF. Here comes the hard part to write. I have not seen my daughter who is 29 for 5 years. No fight. She had dropped out of my life for 3 years before that. She had to move because of love,kept in touch, but what do the kids say now GHOSTED me. I am never on social media. My son is my heart. We text daily. Sometimes I say I need to hear your voice or see your face. So he calls! He does not have a relationship with his sister. I AM IN THE DARK. I cry for her but never tell my son. I did once and he said she was doing fine on social media and that was better. I know she took gifts I sent and led me to believe I was a good mother and but she is angry I have a relationship with my son. She blames me for why he won't talk to her. He won't talk about it. I have not visited with h I'm in the car since I have oxygen. He won't drive with a tank. I have been trying to get a portable one. Alot of staff here are like my family. But I cry for my babies. I miss my mom. I suffer from vision changes. I bought new glasses got them in June but in July my prescription changed Alot so I kept my new frames but changing lenses. I can't see out of these old ones. They]bounce a bit,light sensitive. People think I whine when I asked them to take a bulb out of our bathroom. It blinding. They painted white around,put up florescent lights all over Well thank you for listening. I will take some to meet some of you and say hello to old friends.
  6. Omg back to the word NETWORK...... Television Network
  7. I close my eyes to and see you Asha as the Princess on the camel of white sands desert. It sounds like you love this new home especially being around family again. Glad you are safe well and happy. You are stronger than you credit yourself. The bravest and wisest woman I know with compassion that is natural as breathing. I am peaceful reading this like a romantic tale I love on Netfix. I watch the folktales with subtitles. The language is poetry music in my ears. I can see you as the real life heroine. You will bring so much to the village for young women there. I hope you have fun decorating too !!
  8. Welcome! LUCKY!! Sounds like you worked hard and willed your recovery too!We are blessed as it happens o r not. Happy you are doing amazing things!
  9. Grief is natural after a stroke. It is the biggest loss ever...no matter what degree of change or damage....add the fact that the brain is supercharged for pain or emotional control and face it what is more irritation and frustration than dealing with the medical community...from Dr offices to insurance. I remember my first appointment after hospital. My kids looked in shocked disbelief as I sobbed at the front desk because I was there at wrong time. I mean I sobbed like my cat ran away. Totally disproportionate. I Never cried in public!! AND FOR THAT? I would have gone for lunch. I would have b e been flexible and reason able. I felt my mind and soul were foreign as my body. I took something for depression that also worked on nerve pain. It didn't work for me. I felt weirder and still hurt physically. It was trial by fire to be sure. I agree time helped but on occasion when I am ill or tired. Was it menopausal?? All emotions were heightened. Honestly I still am raw sometimes.++ I say hey just deal with me. This is me. If they are not compassionate then I say it is on them. ?
  10. I have balance and bouncing eye issues and due to location so all posts here I relate to. Therapy kept me strong and accountable. Different therapists have different tricks. One printed exercises and I made album so I could later do them. But now I on oxygen so my PT said I needed the cardiologist to authorize to do anything. But I hope you see someone who specialized in vestibular therapy like mine because I had the Canolith repositioning procedure when I first had a stroke and I believe it helped. I am going to have the procedure again soon because recently I have been having trouble from frequent sinus and ear infections. I am a hot mess. I stand and I feel weird off like I just got off an E ticket ride. I must wait for my eyes to adjust. My prob is BPPV plus residual from brain trauma from the ichemic stroke. But the mere fact I can stand fools others into thinking I am normal. For me I also take medication for motion sickness which describes how I feel when I am still or move or go in a moving vehicle like the chair..to complicate this is that the tiny crystals move again and again so no one can tell the reason for my dizziness and unsteadiness with nausea that chimes in. Then my blood pressure drops when I stand so add that in. Closing my eyes does not help. I try and fixate on something I know woul never move and hold onto anything except a person because I wobble feeling their every wiggle. Now I have involuntary Jerks which are earthquakes in my world. And this symphony of disfunction is exhausting. I need more sleep just being awake. When I am in my familiar spaces I am better than not familiar. Indoors better than outdoors. Have you ever been siting in a car when the car next to you backs out and for a second you feel as if YOU are the moving object instead? I experience this alot. And for me I must be touching something ALWAYS. You will never see me doing a Julie Andrew's Sound of Music thing in my bathroom much less on top of a Mountain. I never outstretched my arms and stand alone. One hand needs to trail..along a wall or 2 fingers on my dresser. Or my walker. Once my son let go of me in a store just for a second and I immediately leaned to the left but I knew Dizzy and OFF buttoned not fix it. Walking to my bathroom is like maneuvering through a fun house already but in the forest I feel like I an Unteathered in Outer Space. This floating sensation like tumbling in slow motion. I hit the floor before I realize I was listing left. My leg buckles unexpected sometimes. MY RIGHT LEG. PT explained for a split second my brain looses my right leg. And then it does this thing like someone pushed in my knee from the back. It is frightening because it is unpredictable. BUT THE PAIN IS NEVER INTERRUPTED. BUTsometimes it changes shape. Imagine my pain entity over my head. What feeds it? It changes colors and shapes and then textures or flavors. All I want is for someone to ask me about all those variations and not just the intensity numbers.because I can cope with burning when it is intense but not pins and needles added and this swirls in a tornado in my mind which cannot organize my speech. Did I once teach? I can barely order lunch but I can make a Dr. Appointment so go figure. Frustrating people think they can touch my leg still after all the time I am here. It burns. I feel like I stand in pain and dizziness and others tell me to hurry up they gotta go..but I am on me time in my world now. If I look to Outer edges I feel in a kaleidoscope even with new glasses.