I agree with you! You have got to face your fears and move on. Life has dealt you a bad hand but you can learn to controll your actions now!! I had my first stroke in 2006. It left me with my right arm with no movemet and my right leg down in the dumpes. My second stroke happed in 2010 due to my anurism surgery I had in Sept. of that year. I came out of it parlized from my waist down.
So now I have an electric wheel chair that I ride in.