This isn't about sex - so, stop reading now if the title made you look! - lol
I have to rediscover my passion.
I used to be the most passionate person you'd want to meet. I had 14 projects all going on at once, your typical type A personality, and I'd pull off everything with flying colors.
I had enthusiasm, I had motivation, I had passion. The stroke didn't stop me but, I think the lymes did.
I suffered through the last 8 months without a purpose. Doing things that had to
I am SO tired, I'm ready for bed at 6:30 - part of it's working 10 hours a day - part of it's the recovery process I'm going through.
I did not "kill" Ryan - but, I am seriously considering sending him to Jean for a week or two, to whip him into shape - I know she doesn't have children, but she has the strength, knowledge, values, and common sense that he needs!!
(I'm wiping out the mold from page 2, as we speak - virtual "Febreeze" if you will.)
Sometimes being a Mom is hard -
If you don't have kids - stop reading now - this is a mother venting!
I am livid!!!! I have never been so angry in my life!!!!
Ryan lied to me - for the first time (and what will certainly be his last time!) he didn't tell the truth. At 15, I should be prepared for little lies, and I am. . . But, this one was a whopper.
Ryan told us he had to stay at Tony's last night. They had to finish the English report they were working on for summer school. Tony's Mom would get them to school
I'm exhausted -
I made homemade tortellacci and tortellini today. I started cooking at 8 am and I just finished at 4 pm. It takes me twice as long now as it used to.
I froze two dinners, so if I'm never able to do it again - The kid's will have a "taste" of my Grandmother's recipes - (even if I can't imagine Katie or Ryan rolling dough for hours!) and all the "family secrets" are written out for them, if they wanted to try.
I went to Walgreens to pick up my prescriptions while th
Well, Pam was right - again. Sometimes, the fact that she's always right, just irritates me! LOL -
I got a shot of something so powerful they had to sit with me for 45 minutes -( watching in case I had a bad reaction) - and a new antibiotic pill for 10 days - and they'll wipe the lyme's out.
I didn't catch it soon enough so I'll have residual effects - stiff joints and all ... but, hell I'm a survivor, how bad can it be?
BRING IT ON! I DARE YOU!
I've lived through worse a
We're not talking "sexy" hot here - for that check Pam and Kim's blogs with their mystery men.
I'm talking HOT, set the room on fire, leave ashes in my wake, hot!
Ok, take the after effects of a stroke, mix in some menopause, stir in 90 degree weather, and I'm HOT!
One hot flash and get out of my way - I'm heading for the freezer to put a bag of peas on my neck.
Do not cross me when I'm this hot - you will get burned.
Do not waste my time telling me "this too shall pass
I'm sick - my head hurts so bad it's taken hours to read the posts and blogs from the last few days. I have had a version of this headache for three days
with one eye closed, I type this blog, just to stay off page 2.
Lin, if your reading the blogs, I still want to get together this weekend, but, I'm seeing the nuero for this damn headache this afternoon.
I'll email you when I get home- I can't even think straight now.
And Pam, there's no ponytail involved. So I don't know wh
I have a decent job, J has a decent job but, the stroke has caught up with us. With insurance, we didn't expect the bills to be quite so high.
With house payments, two car payments, Ryan's braces, Katie's tuition, and Doctor bills, etc., etc., we're squeezing nickles here.
I can't take the collection calls, and dunning letters. I've made the decision to sell some of my Grandmother's stuff. It was a really tough decision but, I think she'd understand.
Her Jewelry is going on EBay t
I've heard so many different experiences of stroke survivors that I don't know what's "normal."
What I've been told doesn't register with what's happening to me personally, and I'm lost looking for answers.
Emotional Lability - I've been told it gets better after 3 or 4 months.
It's been 11 months and I still cry "if the cheese doesn't fit the triscuit" - "if the sky is blue" - "if a squirrel looks at me funny". There is no reason for the tears logically, they just come.
I ca
Well, Jerry (also known as J) had more fun than I did! He actually went to High School with most of my cousins. (J alway's lived in Highland Park, I moved to Wisconsin my freshman year) - We met because his brother married my cousin but, that's a whole different story.
I wish I had Jean's Don there, to make friends with all the people!
I didn't know half of them and didn't remember the other half, if I ever knew them! I just tried to be polite.
I'm not good with being kissed by s
Sunday is my Mother's Family reunion - Her father was the baby of 16 children, and she has 181 first cousins. I don't know how many cousins I have but, there's a small town in Illinois and I wasn't allowed to date anyone that lived there! If you are Italian, we're probably related on my Mothers side. My parents thank God everyday that I married an Irishman.
Over 500 cousins are expected for this reunion. My first cousin Laurie, and second cousin Dirce, have put this all together. I haven't
I had a headache today. No - it was a screaming blue meanie HEADACHE!
The kind that brings tears to your eyes and makes you want to hit yourself with a hammer so it doesn't hurt so bad! I called the Dr to get advice but, he and the nurse were at lunch. I did get a very professional opinion from the receptionist .... don't wear your hair in a ponytail. So now I know what caused my stroke!!! The ponytail - lol
~V
No, I wasn't stressed out because I almost landed in the blog pit of page two.
I have to fire Amy today and that's stressing me out.
I've done everything I can in the last 6 months to make this work for her. I've even sold stuff and given her the sale so she can get commission on it.
She's just not doing anything. What's sad is she was my brothers friend. She's really a great kid and I feel so bad to have to tell her it's just not working out.
You would think after 6 months,
I just got off the phone with Kim in Alabama!
I'm making my airline reservations in the morning!
I'm going to the Strokenet Golf Tournament in Alabama, even though I don't golf!
I am SO excited - a weekend with Kimmy is going to be a blast!
I'll help her with the tournament, the raffle, and anything else she needs!
It's going to be my first vacation in 7 years!
I've been told I'm not allowed to come home with a drawl or big hair!
I'm ending each sentence h
I want to go to the Farmer's Market, but I'm kind of scared. There are tons (hundreds, no thousands) of people there converging in 4 crowded blocks.
and I'm not good in crowds. I'm slower than most. and I'm trepidacious.
(whoohoo - stumped the spell check with that $30 dollar word)
It's a word that speaks volumes, it comes from the word "trepidation" - meaning trembling movement, fearful uncertainty.
It kind of describes me in a crowd. I don't need a wheelchair, walker, or
J left me at home without a car (HIS is in the shop) while he's gone down to Illinois for a party. I'm ok with that because, I didn't want to go anyway.
At about 8 o'clock his family is ready to take turns dancing on tables and I'm ready to go to bed.
But, being all alone, I did something just for me, something my husband would be bored with. I started watching the auction on PBS.
After 4 hours, I figure I own Sesame Street and I've subsidized Ken Burns' next documentary! And t
I should be celebrating! I jumped! Two feet in the air, one glorious movement a gymnast would have been proud of.
Before you cheer - I'll tell you the rest of the story.....
Someone had used a saucer for a butter dish, and I was washing dishes. I wanted to be sure the saucer was clean... you know ... no melted hints of oilyness in the recessed area of the saucer.
Well, I dropped the saucer and that's when it happened.
My brain told my body to jump out of the way of what surel
Today is Brat Fest!
No, not Brat like a spoiled child. It's a festival that celebrates the german sausage "bratwurst".
You are laughing already, I know it.
Google "Brat Fest" and "Sentry", and you'll find "Brat Fest" has many fine supporters.
Ryan and his friends among them!
For the last three years Brat Fest was held with in walking distance of my house, but it's grown so big they had to take over our convention center this year.
Ryan and his buddy's have eating con
Somebody give me a few thousand dollars please! I've got shopping goosebumps and Jerry's taken away my credit cards!
I got this great catalog in the mail today and I had to share.
It's called The Country House. www.thecountryhouse.com
I swear, I've spent the last hour writing up "orders" for things I really can't afford to buy.
And as soon as I can physically do it - I'll be "stealing" half the ideas in the catalog to replicate them myself.
Jean's into antiques, Pam got
I haven't had a vacation in 13 years. Even when I had my stroke I was back at work in 4 days. Well before I could speak a full sentence or walk a relatively normal three steps.
I haven't had a REAL vacation - 5 days off in a row (- 7 - if you include the weekend) in so long, I don't even know what I'd do. Where would I go?
The last "vacation" I had was 13 years ago. We took the kids to Disneyworld and I attended a convention and went to some seminars. We could write off the trip.
Tomorrow night is the Daytime Emmy Awards!
Why am I excited?
THEY HAVE A SHOE CAM!
That's right! The "jimmy choo's" "faragamo's" & "channel's" - all of those wondrous lovely heels that I can no longer wear, will be paraded in living color.
It's shoe lust satisfied! Strap some diamonds on to those 4" heels Baby! Give me satin and a peek a boo toe!
Delight my mind with visions of a well crafted matching bag and I'm in heaven.
So, Friday night I don't care wh
1 It's a wonderful life
2. National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation
3. White Christmas
4. The Santa Clause
5. Miracle on 34th Street
6. Boy's Town
7. Gone With The Wind
8. Noises off
9. The Wizard of Oz
10. The Pirate (Vicente Minnelli's not to be confused with the 1982 Pirate Movie - which sucked!)
11. West Side Story
12. The Big Sleep (original)
13. Captain Ron
14. An Officer and a gentleman
15. Pretty Woman
16. Rocky Horror Picture Show
17. Scrooged
18. My Big
WARNING: I'm Bitching! Don't read any farther if you need some cheese with your whine!
I had a bad really crummy rotten terrible day! It sucked! And that's about as eloquent as I can be about it without bursting into tears.
I've done everything short of taking the prints off the walls in my office. Only because I can't take them down myself.
I don't care if I have to spend the rest of my life saying "do you want paper or plastic" just to cover our insurance - I don't intend to co
Get up at 6 am - clean up peppers and onions from last night's Italian Sausage -
Some one got home late and left them on the counter all night.
Wash all the dishes that accumulated since 9 last night.
Feed the cats.
do two loads of laundry.
Katie makes home made waffles, scrambled eggs, and hashbrowns.
Spend another hour cleaning the kitchen - and one doing the breakfast dishes.
Do a load of laundry.
Take Ryan to video store to rent movies - one for him and o
I fell down today twice.
Twice down a flight of cement stairs - like a "soap opera godess". Landing on my butt - not breaking my neck or anything like they do in the movies, or on tv.
I hurt all over but, mostly I hurt my pride. I parked on the third floor of a parking ramp. They had no elevator because they were under construction.
I took the stairs thinking "I can do this", I walk down three stairs everyday - without a hand or a guardrail.
I was an idiot and I'll pay for
