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Will he ever come home?

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road trip

I went to the breast cancer breakfast with my girlfriend and we had a really nice time. We are going to get together again to catch up on all that we did't get to. I joined a group called "well-spouse" i found it online. They are people who talk and get together to support each other. They have spouses that have been effected with some sort of illness and are trying to help each other. They have a respite weekend in PA in Sept that I am really interested in and would like to go to. It is a

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Thank you all

I have just read the replies to my "normal" post. Thanks to all of you for caring. Sue I know you are right and I am trying hard to get started its just very hard for me right now. I try every day. I have taken a break from going to the hospital every day. I know he is being cared for and they will call me if there are any changes. I have planned a day off from work and I am going to a breakfast event at a beautiful hotel for breast cancer survivors with my friend who is also a survivor. W

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normal?

I had a really good day with my husband, but i am just horrible now. I feel so ungrateful he is the one in the snf and i am at home but i am so misreable. I want him at home with me and i hate being alone. I hate leaving him there and while im there with him im ok and we watch TV or look at pictures and it feels just like it used to be, but as soon as i get in the elevator and the parking lot i am a basket case. When will i be ok with this. I try to think about taking him home, but i know

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Being Positive

Im trying to be positive and grateful for what I have, which is alot. I still have my d-husband. I have a dear friend who is my "sister" (i just wish she were geography closer), and her three children, who i adore and they are wonderful to me. I have some dear friends who live near to me as well and they look after me. I have a job that i enjoy and is close to home and hospital. And I have job security. I like where I live, but i do miss my Mickey being here with me. I have my faith. I have

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Happy July 4th

Well its another holiday first. I did't think this one would be a biggie but it is. Because it falls on a Friday I have a 3 day weekend and I can't believe I'm saying this, but I dread it. I now find comfort (or something like comfort) in going to work. And the thought of three days off just makes me cry. It will be a long weekend. I am just feeling so lonely. I just realized today that it was the 4th and i would be off. I will go and see my husband of course, but then I will be at home

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Family or Foe?

I know, I know, but I still have trouble comprehending, in fact to tell the truth i still don't get it. I have been abandonded (and that is not too strong of a word) by all family. We do not have any children. I have not heard from his son since January. Me and his brother had a "disagreement" months ago and my "wonderful" sister in law (his wife), so I don't hear from them either. My sister stopped talking to me two months ago because me and my mother had an arguement and my mother told he

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More therapy

I have just about come to terms with the fact that my husband (his name is Mickey) will not be coming home. When the stroke first happened and for months after i was conviced and completely sure that i would bring him home, maybe in a wheelchair but he would be with me at home. It was hard, hard, hard to face that. I still cry about it and wish it were different and would do anything to change that. But through this website I have learned that his safety is first and in his condition he woul

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Therapy for me

My darling husband stroked August 14, 2007. The doctors did not expect him to make it. He had a massive left hemisphere bleed. When he had a mid-line shift in his brain they said they had some medicine to take the swelling down but did not expect it to work. He was on a vent and feeding tube. He was in CCU for 30 days. Then the miracle I prayed for was answered and he woke up. We moved him to an acute rehab, The Burke Institute in White Plains NY, one of the best in the country. He had th

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