It has been a slow last 2 days around here in camp 'Shut-In.' Hubby our entertainer is out working, the snow/ice comes and kiddo and I are here at camp'Shut-In.' Mommy is too scared of falling to be a fun parent outside. I try to play with my kiddo but there is only so much'pretending' I can do. Especially when my kiddo is changing the rules every second.
I dug out some expired bird seed from the my classroom graveyard in the garage. I teach a mini lesson to my kiddo, to build up t
*Warning blog has nothing to do with stroke.
My new vacuum cleaner is the best present ever. I would never use anything else besides a D**** now.
My sister knew how much a wanted a XXX vacuum. I couldn't really see the need to get one with my own $$, since I know happiness cannot be given to me through a vacuum.
I was wrong.
Any who, I feel very rejected at how my old vacuumb/c it pretended to do its job, when really I was wasting my survivor energy pushing around a f
Okay, so 30 is no big deal.
I thought I'd never see 30, 2 tell U the truth.
My 20's were okay, but a lot of tragic things happened:heart surgery/stroke. One blessed thing did happen, my daughter was born. When I am 40 will I still feel 30? I still feel like I am 25 somedays when the pain is gone.
Being born on Valentine's day isn't very fun.
#1 I was born with a congenital heart defect
#2 I have to share it with my B-day. Yes, my hubby has to do both presents.
Today was an out-of-the-ordinary day today.
My old college roomie moved back from spending 3+years in Costa Rica. She moved back with her dog, who is bilingual. Yes, he understands English and Spanish. It was so weird to hear her speak to her dog in a different language, and I had no idea what she said, when the dog did.
I got out of my 'routine' so my tone increased a bit, and I felt more damaged than other days. It was fun taking a trip down memory lane of our care-free college d
Man, since my hubby started working days, I am so tired at the end of the day. I have been busy so much I barely notice I am home alone.
My afternoons are spent making the evening menu, and getting it ready, then it is time to pick up daughter from school, walk and Daddy's home. M y husband is having to switch working night to day's. It is so nice to go to bed together at night.
I feed him a big dinner when he comes home, and then he lays down and goes right to sleep. I re
This blog comes from one deep inside my brain, that I have never taken the time to think about until now..
I will have to jump down memory lane for you. Remember I am only 29 years old,so college/high school wasn't to terribly long ago.
High School Amy:
"I'll be happy When..."
1. I'll be happy when, I can drive.
2. I'll be happy when, I have a boyfriend.
3. I'll be happy when I wear a size 3.
4. I'll be happy when I get out of this cowboy town
College Amy:
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I have a cute Kindergarten story to share, if you promise not to tell my daughter I told you.
They were playing the rhyming game at school, since they are learning rhyming words. The teacher so happen to ask my baby, "What rhymes with Bell?" She replied with"Hell."
Bless her little heart, she came home and told us, and hid her face thinking Daddy and I would get mad, but you almost had to pick us up off the floor.
She doesn't want to talk about it, she says. So here I am b
Ding, Dong, our taxes are done. I did them, this year w/ out my husbands help. Last year I messed up our filing kind of bad, but this year, no "Could you help me where I got stuck?"
I am sure my neuro psych in rehab would shudder at the fact my damaged brain was filing taxes.
Oh well..Another one of my therapies,I call it.
-Amy
When my left eye had no peripheral vision I really had no clue. You can't miss something you don't see. My daughter was standing in my left peripheral vision this morning. I said "Hi, baby."
"How could you see me,Mommy??" (totally shocked at the fact I could see her.)
When my vision was giving me problems, she could run in the room I was in and out, and not get seen by me.
She thought it was the funniest thing, when her little game was found out with me seeing her.
Yesterday I set out for the big Wal-Mart to do the weekly grocery shopping, and get a new watch battery.
The lady working at Wal-Mart in the jewelry department, gave me a knife like object and asked me to take the plate off the back of my watch. I told her a short version of why I couldn't. I said "This arm is paralyzed, and I have only one arm to use. I cannot do it." She seemed miffed at the fact she was the one who had to take the watch plate off. Isn't that what her job is for? T
I saw the most wonderful sign of spring, while checking my mail this week. The daffodils have sprouted out by my mailbox. It also brought back a bitter sweet memory of my grandfather planting the bulbs before Parkinson's disease ate his personality and functions away.
I know stroke and Parkinson's disease are not the same, but I wonder, how my Granny may of felt being a full-time caregiver to a non-verbal almost non mobile spouse?
Changes are coming our way soon.
Hubby, go
I could blame it on my damaged brain, carelessness, but something funny happened the other night at the grocery store.
My daughter and I set out to make a quick run to the local Wal-Mart. WE usually never go at night/dusk, but for some reason we needed to go. I always make a mental not to remember what # row we parked, b/c I have lost my car in the parking lot before. It was dark, so I had to make a mental map note.
We did our business and came out the door. I spotted our car
I am fueled at one of our local town photographer. I think I am embarrassed and mad at myself too.
If you want to read, here it goes. My kiddo had her picture taken at a function from a local photographer.
Well, months passed, and I didn't hear from or get the pictures.
I called today to check on them.
They said that they were ready, and couldn't read my phone number written down, to call me to pick them up.
WEll $hit I know I had a stroke, and lost my domina
"I am from..." writing Assignment from Susan Slowes Blog
I can remember being in the 4th grade when we were watching the space shuttle launch live on t.v. at school and not knowing why the teacher's were upset when the space shuttle exploded. I didn't know it wasn't suppose to. Did I just give away my age?
I am from a small rural Arkansas town where I saw no diversity except when I was on vacation with my family.
I am from the house of a homemaker where I thought everyone's mom
I wasn't planning on going a week without wearing my tight (girdle)ankle support, but one morning I couldn't find it, leading me, to week one without it.
I found it, but I am going to put it away until I really need it again. *Along with my cane, and other accessories.
I do have to be careful when walking. I am walking on the treadmill with out it also. My ankle used to flop like a noodle when I walked.
Now, since I wrote this, I am cursed to falling sometime in the future.
Hubby took off kiddo's training wheels today, and they went outsidefor lesson #1. I was oblivious to the fact until kido came in crying, needing to get consolment from Mommy. Drama Queen!
Nothing to blog.
-Amy
I have a dentist Appt. tomorrow, and I am so nervous. WE don't have any dental insurance at the moment, so I am praying I will be cavity free. (I was 6 months ago, so let's hope!)
-Amy
I think my excersizes my OT gave me to do last month, I think they may be helping.
I used to barely be able to open my affected hand. I worked with putty grabbing /closing fist. It was very frustrating and mentally hard, but it seems when I first wake up in the mornings I am able to open and close it easily.
I was showing my new hand trick off to my kiddo and hubby, and my kiddo didn't like that my affected pointer finger and thumb were not doing it. Now, the tone is really inc
I wsa a thinking, the other day about the 'scary day of my Stroke', and I had to have 2 rounds of TPA while in the ER/ICU. (They were 12 hours apart.) I haven't/didn't ask the reasons why, just had to, b/c the movement I did have, stopped all of a sudden.
Subject switch...I'm gettin P.T.Stress.
My Kiddo got her Christmas present she thought that she wasn't getting,"A Dora the Explorer Talking Dollhouse."
WE had Christmas at my in-laws, and she got it from "Mee-maw." I love watch
My 5 yr. old kiddo had to put her head down again this week at school.
One day she missed 5 min . of recess.
I was the type who never got introuble at school, and hubby did.
I think, having to put your head down is a bad thing.
Hubby thinks every kid gets in trouble sometimes.(No big deal)
Is it bad to have a negative consequence at home for putting your head down at school? I am afraid the behavior could build on itself and she may get comfortable getting in trouble at sch
ASha's blog, prompted my brain of something embarrassing my arm did once. My stroke arm lacks feeling/sensation, so I never know where my arm is or what it is doing unless I see it. The last time I went to the dentist, my stroke arm lay on my body with my hand right on my crotch. I was so embarrased when my appointment was over and it looked like I had been touching myself during the cleaning.*At least it wasn't moving around.
I have watched the movie Polar Express the last 2 nights in a
I went to the doctor last week to get my cholesterol checked, since everybody in my family is saying their score. Hubby got his checked, it was a little high. My SIL who is Mrs. Fitness got hers checked and it was high also. I was left to ponder,"What is my level then?" It was 25 points up from where it was 2 years ago, and I didn't know it was borderline high then. The doctor doesn't think I need to be on Rx Meds, but we are just going to monitor it yearly. I think I am going to go back to
My kiddos that I volunteer at the neighborhood school have leaped and bounded on test scores, since I have started with them, this year.
Wait now.... It is not all me, but a whole team of us, helping them.
I feel important to know, that I can still be of use to society, unlike my doctor Kavorkian (sp?) How he said in other words,
"Stroke leaves a person a waste to society, no getting better, give up on recovery, ect." He didn't say it so bluntly but, those are the words I hear
I must be an idiot today, I 'm tired, my brain is fried. I was scrambling around in the kitchen fast, trying to throw a hot dinner together for my starving family. I turned on the wrong burner, then placed my good hand ontop of the burner. I now have a cute trendy burner ring on the palm of my good hand. I am soo mad at myself and it hurts like heck!
I think this gives me an excuse to skip church in the morning.
I could tell earlier today, that this was not a good brain day today. I
