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The Way He Was

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HO HUM!!!!!!!!!!!

I just feel blah these days. Thought the warm weather would bring out the energy in Mike and get him up and going but guess it just worked the opposite on him. He doesn't want to do anything but sleep these days! OH WELL!!!!

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NeuroAid

I know i have seen something on here about this before but i can't seem to find it now. Can someone help me out here or has anyone tried it before and did it work? Thanks for you input.

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Video Chat

I wish they would incorparate a video chat on this site. They have it on facebook! Maybe that is something you guys higher up can check into. Wouldn't it be great to be able to see each other face to face? Just a thought.

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Car Shopping!!!

Mike and I have two vehicles both which are very inconvenient when it comes to riding more than two people at a time in them. He has a quad cab Ford Ranger pickup and I have an Isuzu Amigo which is only two door and is also a stick shift. He has, since the stroke and the wedding where he met a large portion of my family, become a lot more family oriented. He wants to take trips and take my son and his wife places with us which is not an easy task with the vehicles that we now own. Well after mu

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Sad Week

I guess May is not going to be a month in my family that we ever look forward to. My sisters husband died on May 4th about 7 years ago, Mike had his stroke on May 5th last year and now May 6th my sweet niece died. She was only 32 but had battled a life with cerebral palsy. She was the only survivor of triplets. My Brother and sister in law decided many years ago not to have any other children so that they may focus all their attention on Shannon. She was their life. It has been a very hard thing

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Knowing which muscles to build up!

After Mikes stroke he was released from the hospital with only a little bit of therapy twice a day for about 30 minutes. They taught us how to transfer him from bed to toilet and how to dress him but that's about all we got from them. Now most of you know he has issues with his left side where he can only do very limited movements with his hand and arm. Well if we had known sooner just which muscles needed to be built up and which ones needed to be stretched this could have saved him a lot of he

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Pictures

Ok i uploaded some pics to my "My Beautiful family" album. I tried to lable them but i keep hitting the wrong button and it keeps going to another page and putting the same comment on all of them so i guess you will just have to figure out what they are until i can sit down and fix it as for tonight i am to tired to fool with it any more! LOL

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We got Married!!!!!!

Hey everybody!!! Well the wedding is over and it was a blast!!! I am trying to post some pictures but can't seem to get them on here! I can't wait for you all to see how great Mike looked! He was so happy and he cried more than I did!! We wanted it to be a fun thing that people would remember so we started out by going on Friday morning before the rehersal and getting him a tatoo of a "C" on his wedding finger since he has a hard time wearing rings on that hand now. Then we made the preacher add

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Been a While!

Hello everyone! It has been a while since i blogtged so I thought i would jump on and let everyone in on whats been happening here! Got sick on Saturday the 9th went to ER and after spending several hours there they sent me home saying it was just a gallbladder attack and that i was gonna have see a surgen soon to have it taken care of. Well after a very painful weekend i spent most of the day on Monday sick and after taking Mike to therapy came home and collapsed on the sofa writhing in pain! T

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Things are looking up!

Well wedding plans are coming together! Got all dresses purchased! The girls are gonna be in red dresses and black cowboy boots!!! Yeeee Haaaa!! LOL I also purchased a lace jacket to wear over my dress. I have what is known as a farmers tan so there is no way i was gonna wear a sleeveless dress with no top so i bit the bullet and bought the jacket. It really sets the dress off and i am so pleased with it!! Now for the flowers, invitations and food! Wow I never knew there was so much to plan for.

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Need as much feed back as possible please

I am posting on my blog because i want as many people to see and give feedback as possible, figured more would see it here than in the forum page. I know I can't judge Mikes progress by the progress of another stroke survivor but maybe it will help me understand just where we are in this. Last night I was doing his exercises and I noticed that he has quite a bit of movement in his foot and toes. He can pull his leg up and hold it in position with his knee bent, it doesn't fall to the side anymo

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Quiet Time!!

Well 2013 is here and I am spending the day relaxing and deep in thought. I have been having some issues with depression due to Mike's inability to stay awake for more than 3 hours at a time which makes for a very long boring day. I know the issues of nausea and taste are making it hard for him to enjoy any awake time so I just let him sleep. I mean why make him miserable by waking him up just to sit here and feel sick! Am I wrong by letting him sleep? Should I insist that he get up and move aro

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Christmas

Well it is almost here and I am ready for it to be over! Mike is not the jolly Christmas type of person to begin with so coming from a large family that has always been all into it, this is a big adjustment for me. I thought last year was hard for him because it was the first Christmas he had spent with another woman in the house since his wife passed in 2008. I thought this year would be better. Now we are dealing with Stroke recovery and all the crap that comes from that so this year is no bet

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&^%$#@(*!@# Computers!

Why oh why do I wait till the last minute to go online to chat. Just bought a new computer and was soooo excited about the Tuesday night chat for Debbies virtual bridal shower! Went to chat room and computer would not allow the site to open due to security reasons. Got out the old computer and got on chat, was on there approximately 4-5 minutes, computer locks up! Could not get back online to save my neck! From now on i will make sure i can access all areas of a site before something that impor

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Waiting on results. This is nerve racking!

Took Mike to doctor on Tuesday due to the fact that he is not eating because of taste issues and the little he does eat usually doesn't stay down. He ordered lots of blood work and cat scan with contrast for his digestive track. Now it is a wait and see game. He has lost 75lbs since his stroke and looks like a skeleton. I though we were on the road to recovery but seems like Stroke has another hurdle for us to climb over! When does it end? Can't it just take all it wants from the get go and let

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Should be Happiest time of my life!

As I sit here today thinking about all the things I should be thankful for and how happy I should be, I can't help but be sad. I am increasingly becoming depressed with this thing that is taking away our happiness. I am becoming bitter and withdrawn. My family seems to think I have forgotten about them because I spend all my time at home taking care of Mike. When my first granchild was born I was always there to visit and take her places, keeping her overnight and bonding with her. I haven't ev

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Praying for each other

Today Dan is having surgery to get a peg tube put in. Lets all take a moment this morning to say a prayer for him and Nancy! They go through so much and she is such a wonderful caregiver! Let's all pray that this will help Dan with his nutrition problem and therefore will help Nancy in her daily struggles as a cargiver to ease her worries of the malnutrition problem. Stroke life isn't easy as we all know but these added worries are just a bit much sometimes. God be with them both and blessings p

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Another trip to ER

Q:What do you get when you cross a can lid with a stroke survivor on blood thinners?   A: A 3 hour visit to the ER and 5 stitches in thier foot!   I can sort of laugh about this now but at the time it was not funny. Mike and I were so looking foward to just sitting watching our favorite show on Thursday night. We were gonna just kick back eat some boiled peanuts and watch some SOA, so I go get the peanuts, open the can, drain the juice and pour them up in a bowl. Mike is sitting in his PC at

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All Advise will be appreciated!

I am so glad to have this site as an outsorce. Mike and I are friends on facebook so I cannot use that as a way to vent my feelings due to the fact that he thinks he is causing me too much stress as it is and if he saw some of the things I write on here it would only add to his pain. I love him dearly and would never leave him but I do have some issues that I think he could be a little more supportive of sometimes. For instence: My grand daughter is 11 yrs old and since she was about 3 until ag

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ON THE GROUND AGAIN!!!!

We have a 46 Ford pickup truck that Mike purchased quite a few years ago. It is stored in the barn at the bottom of the property which is downhill from the house but the yard slopes very gently. Mike had asked my brother to come take a look at it and determin if he would like to take it and do some mechanical work to it so that we could sell it, or maybe just drive it around and do some car shows. Well he came over and we were in the shop getting some stuff out to give my brother when Mike decid

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Tooooo Muuuuccccchhhhh going on!!!!

Mike has no therapy now, daughter trying to buy new home, son trying to get into truck driving school, ex husband in hospital, what do they expect of me!!!! I am only one person! You would think that with my youngest child being 26 years old I would not have to talk my offspring through every daily aspect of thier lives!! :jig:   I try to use all my concentration on Mike right now but there always seems to be someone else needing some petty little thing and I have to drop what I am doing and l

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No self motivation

The time has come that I no longer can motivate Mike to do things and he has no self motivation. He sits in the kitchen and watches TV when he is awake. Then when he can't find anything to watch he goes to the bedroom and lays down for a "nap" which usually ends up being 3-4 hours long! I have talked to him about this and told him that he has got to start doing more excercises and pushing himself harder. He has mastered all the things home therapy can give him to do but we can't get him into out

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Breakdown Time!!

Up at 4am, Mikes nauseated and throwing up. Back to bed @ 5:30, still no sleep. I'm laying there thinking about all he has gone through and all the crap that has happened the past year in my life and it all comes up and out like a flooding river! I am crying uncontrollably! This is something I rarely do, especially where Mike can see me as I do not want to upset him. I don't know where this is coming from. Guess it's just time to let some of it out. I am crying for Mike and all he has lost to th

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