I have wanted a child for so long and thought I knew exactly how I would feel but I never thought I would be scared to die without meeting my baby. I'm so very scared that I will not be able to keep my baby safe. When I allow myself to be normal and not think about my stroke I begin to feel so blessed and in aww. I was not at all trying to get pregnant but I stopped working due to stress and fatigue so I guess that's what happens when you are not stressed lol. I see my neurologist on the 22nd an
I have been working at my job part time since May of this year which was only 5 months after my stroke. I feel like I rushed into working because I need to pay bills and feel useful. i had just graduated from my cane the day before i started. Way to soon for me to go back. i was so scared i was going to die at work when i started. i thought "oh God no, please dont let these people be the last people i see before i die". but i kept going.
My employer was great at first, letting me gradually
Christmas eve I will be celebrating 1yr of surviving my stroke. I don’t know how I am surviving because it is pretty debilitating. For me the most debilitating part is the emotions I face each and every day. Christmas items trigger me into a state of anxiety of depression. I get really sad because my memories of those painful moments are so vivid. The insensitive, idiotic things people said to me when I was under their care are on playback. So what now? Im full of questions and low on answers. I