William hates for me to go to work. He would just love it if I stayed at home and took care of him.
I personally enjoy the time away. Even though it is work. This makes my life not seem like the 24/7 it would be if I were the sole caregiver for William.
I also enjoy the money that I can earn. We have more discretionary money to spend because of my job. We get the added bonus of insurance coverage for him and myself. this would all be out of pocket if I wasn't working.
All in all I know that work is helping me to keep my sanity. It is difficult and stressful. But the pros out weight the cons.
Leaving William with the caregiver reminds me of the time when my son was little and he had to go to day care. No, actually it doesn't. he loved going to day care and did not mind my leaving in the least. In fact, he loved going to the babysitters. William is truly a new experience for me. He is much more clingy and needy than my child was.
This makes me feel that he needs to be with caregivers...He cannot be so dependent upon me.