I was talking to my son Dan yesterday, poor guy has the flu and he was at work feeling miserable. He told me he had been talking to Marc, his brother. Marc`s first girlfriend passed away last week. Apparently that made him think of my brother who died last xmas and how life is short. It has been six years since Marc and I have not had a mother/son relationship. The good news is he asked Dan for my new number and he is supposed to call me. I know Dan has been after him to do that for a long time. I thank God my wish will finally be answered. Is it possible that I vcan have a life with Andre and a life with my family at the same time. This will be the greatest xmas gift ever. I will not see Marc at xmas but he swore to his brother that the reason is not that I will be there. The xmas dinner is being given by my niece this year and will be the first year since I met Andre that I will be there. It was supposed to be last year but that never happened because of my brother`s death, though I did spend xmas with my family when we were all rallied around my brother`s hospital bed. I hope this year will be cheerier though Im sure my brother will be with us, at least in our thoughts.