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The Calm Before the Storm


AZ Leah

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I have been (and still am) so grateful for the peace and calm I have been in recently especially in view of Jerry's death 2 months ago. Well yesterday, Dec. 26 and today I hit a wave of terrible grief. I figured it would happen and so I wasn't but yet was surprised but I sure didn't like it. I know people grieve in different ways and in their own time and can't project when such emotions will hit them. I think I was SO busy doing, doing & more doing that I stuffed my emotions, although I didn't really think I was doing that. I will continue to pray and try to get in more exercise and remember I can say NO when people want me to go out. I am going to a friend's house on New Year's Day, however. There will only be 6 people there and I'm being picked up. I know them well enough that if I want to go home, they will honor however I feel. Tomorrow is another day. God bless you all, Leah

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Leah, I think it will happen from time to time. Just give yourself some downtime when it happens then pick yourself up and go on as usual when you are ready and live to your "new normal" if you can.

 

Thinking of you and praying that peace and calm will return.

 

Sue.

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Leah,

Grief will come in waves. When they come just go through the process. It sounds like you have wonderful friends that will be looking after you.

 

I will pray for you as you transition through this loss.

 

Ruth

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I know that now and know I need to be especially good to myself, as I am very vulnerable. Tomorrow I am going to a grief support group with a close friend who lost her husband (also my friend) 3 1/2 years ago. I hope it helps. I'm afraid I'll burst out in tears if I open my mouth but then again, so what, that is what grief is. Thanks Ruth and Sue. You have been through it all. Prayers are certain welcome. Hugs, Leah

 

Sue: I plan to go into you blogs and read what all you've been through recently. I don't think I could have made it through what you have had to bare. XX OO

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Leah:

 

I know it's easy saying grieving after loss of loved ones is normal. but always keep in mind you survived for a reason & not as punishment &Jerry is now looking over you as your angel watching out for you. please accept help of friends & family to get through this difficult time in your life. We are all here cheering you on in our cyber world.

 

hugs,

Asha

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leah, i totally understand how you feel, losing my hubby alittle over a year ago, i still grieve and feel the loss daily in my heart, tears come very often to me but i try and weather the storm, its hard on my sons too. the holidays and birthdays are the worse.i am grateful for the time i had with him, but it wasn't enough, that i couldn't control. the memories will last a lifetime and i think of them everyday. it does get easier with time after a loss. life just isn't the same anymore but i should be used to that by now because of my stroke. you getting out more will help you feel better. my prayers and love for you are never ending. hang in there. hopefully this new year will bring you peace and joy. take care of yourself too.

 

kimmie

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