Wow, went back to re-read the entry and relized that several mistakes that I swear i didnt see when I typed it. The statement should have read that "I try to be grateful" not that I try not to be grateul, but I guess thats why i lost my job, these types of things.

Okay Rico, its been along day, running back and forth to the neurologist, PCP and the hospital in order to get records, xrays and ct scans. Felt pretty dumb when the new doc asked to do the walk feel to toe thing and couldnt balance enough to even try. Went through the same "open your mouth", squeeze my fingers" and other tests only to again wonder when is anyone going to ask me to tie my shoes or do a math problem or remember my phone number. I try not to be grateful that my deficiences have to do mostly with cognitive thinking abilities but still, my ability to do math and do this type of thinking is what has paid my bills in a nice manner for the last 16 years. Now, for the first time in my career I was let go because I couldnt do the work? well dang it, folks suggested to you that you probably came back to early. If I wasnt such a burro maybe I would have listened. Oh well, have to go paint on my smile for when Jenni (the wife) comes home from work, she doesnt need anything more to worry about.