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Here we go again.


FrederickRico

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Another day of sitting here wondering what on earth is going on. I went through four wonderful days of hardly any headaches, had my balance and was even able to speak with someone about a possible job even though they knew fully of my current issues and they are still interested.

 

Then, it all comes crashing down again. the shakes, the loss of balance, the disorientation, the confusion, cant hold a cup of coffee and then going back into that valley of depressesion. I read these posts and want to some day be able to give comfort to someone else out there and not seem like I am screaming for attention. The best I can do is let someone know they are not alone as I have felt until I found the wonderful folks on this website.

 

All the doc combined are still arguing about the correct disagnosis with one saying that I should be fine, one saying I have definite deficiences that were not there before and one saying that she has found a Chiari Malformation which is in all likelyhood caused the issues with the stroke and is now makiing things worse and would require surgery to fix. Well if that is the case, so be it, bring it on and lets get moving. I am going to make a supreme effort to find all this out, stay positive and try more to understand everything.

To anyone feeling the same right about now, you are not alone. I cant offer any suggestions or answers, other than that.

 

thanks again for listening.

 

Rico

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Rico, I understand because I was in the same boat. I think the docs finally found my problem and mentally I'm feeling much better, though physically I have more challenges. I can deal with challenges as long as I know what they are. But even knowing that, at this early stage in our recovery there will still be good days where we feel we have the tiger by the tail and days when that tiger whips us wildly until we don't know which way is up!

 

Keep your head up and know that when you find your answers it will all be worth it.

 

Jamie

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Rico: I certainly pray that the doctors reach a unilateral decision. There is nothing worse than the not knowing and perhaps a bit of comfort knowing that some help may be coming.

 

In the meantime, you have still suffered a brain injury and those deficits must be dealt with on a daily basis. We often say here stroke is one step forward, two back. On those off days; rest, do some simple exercises, work on cognitive recovery-reading, writing. When your body says stop, just listen and do those things you know you can get through. It is not necessarily a bad day, just a day to concentrate on other areas of recovery.

 

In the meantime, I am praying that your doctors get together and can give you an informed game plan. Debbie

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Rico,

You don't have to wait to find someone else out there who doesn't know about this website to tell to give comfort to. You have plenty here to offer help and a hug to just by answering a post and saying...You're not alone, I know how you feel.

If that's all you have right now, please don't underestimate the power of letting someone else know there's someone in the same spot as they are. We didn't all start out like this you know. We started just like you, very confused, depressed, and thinking we weren't ever going to see a better day.

Those of us who are responding are pretty far along and it took us a long time to get here, and you will too. We can't get people to reach out and say please help me I can't do this alone. The fact that you have the courage to reach out is HUGE.

 

Prayers & (((((hugs))))))

 

Maria

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Rico,

 

I suppose those are some of the bumps in the road to recovery we face as stroke survivors. I think I have been through a few of them myself it's just that 8 years has come and I'm doing much better than I was many years ago! At least every day is another day of recovery and we look forward to tomorrow although it's not promised! God bless you Rico

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