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she works hard for the $


jessie8a

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I have been working at my job part time since May of this year which was only 5 months after my stroke. I feel like I rushed into working because I need to pay bills and feel useful. i had just graduated from my cane the day before i started. Way to soon for me to go back. i was so scared i was going to die at work when i started. i thought "oh God no, please dont let these people be the last people i see before i die". but i kept going.

 

My employer was great at first, letting me gradually increase my hours a day and maintain a part time schedule, and even keep my work simple and low energy. Now, five months later and I feel like nothing has changed except my workload. I feel like I have a full time workload and I’m exhausted after work. I can’t exercise to get stronger and stay with my physical therapy plan; I can’t even do any of the necessary household chores after work. I’m also noticing an increase in headaches; now that I am working like I worked pre stroke I have a headache every day and I don’t want to take medicine every day. It’s too much and I don’t know what to do. How do I say enough? I cannot go any further. I truly feel like there is no way for me to slow down if I keep this job. It requires so much from me and I am at my breaking point.

ugh I feel like I am being a Negative Nancy and i just want to give up!

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Maybe they have another position in the company that is a lot less stressful and not as physically demanding. You should talk to your supervisor and tell them the issues. If they won't work with you maybe you should look for something more suitable to you handicap. Don't let your job stress you out. You are doing great!

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you cant do , what you cant do.. you went back to soon and cant gain ground and since you are so tired and weak you are losing ground.. like when the tide starts to pull you out into the ocean.... so before you go down in a blaze of glory at your job go and talk to your boss. explain your problem - maybe he has a solution - maybe not.. talk to your medical provider and start the ball rolling to get onto SSDI for the time being.. mabey your stay on ssdi wont be a permanent one. it probably wont be if you take care of yourself now.. if you do not, than the ssdi will become your only life.. take and do what you already know you need to do.. you are not giving up, you are accepting what is and has to be at least for the time being.. if you do not take care of youself NOW there might not be a later... nancyl

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You are not giving up if you quit your job to devote all your energy on your recovery. Quite the opposite. There are many jobs out there but you only have one body and one chance at recovery and the first year after stroke is the most important for your recovery. If you don't have the time or energy to do your physical therapy then I think you have no choice but to leave your job if they arent willing to accomodate you with less workload/hours. Nancy is right. If you don't take care of yourself now, there might not be a later and in the future you will be asking yourself "what if" questions about your recovery. You need to make your health and recovery your number one priority right now. I admire you for trying and also for recognizing that you have taken on too much. Good luck!

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aww thank you so much. i talked with my hubby when i got home and he didnt understand at all. i cant be mad after all i look ok from the outside and it prob just looks like im being lazy to him. I will advocate for myself more. I a so scared to let people down. Today i was just about to give up on fighting for my recovery and keep hurting my body. I really needed someone to say "your not crazy" you three did that for me.

thanks a lot for understanding.

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Please make sure you include your doctor into this terrible problem, he needs to be on your side. I have heard it is more difficult to get Soc Sec benefits once you start working again, because you were already working, so it's harder to prove that you can't. But, if you can't, you really can't and will have to save yourself, as you are the only one who can. One of the main problems of stroke survivors is extreme exhaustion, that is because your brain is trying to heal itself, and that takes a long time. You SHOULD be napping, not working.

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My employer couldn't accommodate my request for a shorter work day so they "released me from my position" and didn't give me another one lol what a nice way of saying your fired. I guess I kind if wanted that because they were not supportive to me. I am applying for unemployment and trying not to feel like a bum.

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