a very long time
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hello everyone, i know its been like forever since i last blogged, but it knew it would be a lengthly one and i kept putting it off. i'm not even sure where to start. my youngest son and i are not very happy here in tx.
unbeknowst to us, my older son marc has a severe drug problem, which makes our lives a living hell. he yells and loses his temper all the time. he won't or is afraid to get off of them. he had a severe car accident a few years ago and injured his back, which is when he got addicted to vicodan. bu i think now he is doing other drugs. we rented a house with a years lease up in march 2013. each of us pays 400.00 a month to cover rent and other monthly bills. i think marc has maybe paid his full amount only maybe 3 times. other times expected me to pay everything. his girlfriend doesn;t let him see the kids very often because he yells at them too, i can't blame her for that. we thought moving back here would be the best thing for me, thinking my sister could help out alittle. she comes over to take me out as much as she can, she works full time and has had problems herself with her son, who went through a divorce not long ago and has developed mental issues, that he can't let things go and move on. he has 2 kids. he lives with my sister, finally got a job he has kept for some time now, so i think things are getting better for her. she has 3 grandkids which she has over alot. when john has his kids, my sister ends up taking care of them. her daughter leeanne helps out when she can. i think we should haved stayed in phx, rented a house,just me and my youngest son matt. he has been my main caregiver since his day died. he doesn't have much of a life, except working, caring for me, and everything else around the house, my oldest cooks maybe 3 times a week if we're lucky, thats his duty around here. i feel so bad for matt, he didn't ask for this but has been there for me since my stroke. my brother lives in houston, so i don't see him very often either. marc is extremely jealous of matt. matt is a nurse and works long days mostly 7 days a week. his employer doesn't give vacations or gas allowance, since he travels all over the city as a home health nurse, nor extra pay for holidays or weekends. his stress level along with mine does not make a good environent to live in, then you add marc into the mix, its only worse. marc has a bad temper and has gotten into our faces many times. i'm not sure what i need to do, i am so unhappy, although i know things could be worse. i guess i'm venting and whinning. i will save the rest for my next blog. i'm kinda embarrassed to even write about this, but every family has their problems, right.
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