I used to be good at multi-tasking and keeping “hundreds” of things in my head at the same time and not forgetting them. Well, needless to say, I’m not that good since my stroke; I can get confused easily or not remember. Also have a problem with too much going on at one time like Thursday which was supposed to be my 2^nd PT day of the week. I didn’t plan very well because my cleaning girl was here running from room to room and taking the vacuum with here , the cable guy was here because my TV would go back on and I couldn’t remember the steps to set it up again. And then he was talking too fast for me to write down how to fix it. So I had to have him repeat it and then I wrote it down and then re-wrote it after he left so I would understand it. My caregiver was also here (who was not the cause of any problem) but too much going on at the same time.

Anyway, I soon realized I was just too tired to go to PT so I guiltily called and canceled. She understood but said “can you give me a longer notice the next time” (it was an hour before). Then I really put a guilt trip on my head and was beating myself up thinking but I probably really could have, etc. Well, I went back to bed and felt better when I got up. Later I told myself I should blog about this to share with others as I doubt I’m not the only one who has these things happen.

So here I am… I remembered reading Asha’s blog a couple weeks ago after she beat herself up and then wrote “10 things I like about myself”. She was following in Jamie’s footsteps, so now I’m following in both of theirs. Here are my 10 (turned out to be 12):

1. I am considerate and kind and have empathy.
   
2. I am spiritual and look to God for strength; I read daily to improve my connection with my spirit.
   
3. I think about and pray for others.
   
4. I try to have a positive attitude to take away sadness on my gray days.
   
5. I continue to exercise so I won’t lose any strength I still have.
   
6. I am grateful for what I have and can do and do not focus on what the stroke has taken from me.
   
7. My brain still works well, even using the computer and doing finances,In spite of my stroke.
   
8. I am truthful.
   
9. I am courteous to others and say thank you.
   
10. I am giving, of my heart and donations to organization for those in need.
    
11. After Jerry’s death in October 2006 I have managed to deal with grief positively by being grateful for 27 years together and am grateful I am able to manage the household without his help and don’t cry as much now.
    
12. I was a very loving and good wife and did not have anything left unsaid whenJerry passed away…truly a blessing
    

Next workout is Monday at 1:00 and I WILL GO. I remembered I just cannot schedule more than one thing in a day so some-thing is coming up in a couple weeks that I am going to change. i.e. don’t try to work out AND go to the doctor!

Hugs, Leah