well, i have posted on the board about the terrible loss my family has endured this past week, so i won't go into it again. i just want to know, how do i deal with the hatred and bitterness i feel towards the guy who murdered 2 wonderful men. i know he was mentally ill, but to me right now, it makes no difference.
i guess i feel like the families in the 911 attack. so many were murdered and the families who lost a loved one had to feel some bitterness. i know bad things happen to good people.but this has just devastated me and my family. chris's loss i'm sure is felt by hundreds of people,a veteran trying to help another veteran and our chad was there to help. it's been said by the media that the murderer felt that these 2 men were after him and he had to kill them before they killed him,PTSD thoughts i'm sure.
chris was an experienced PTSD counselor for the veterans to adjust back to civilian life after fighting in a war. i don't know much about the disorder, fred could help me out there i'm sure. chris had been through 4 tours of duty in iraq, coming home alive and was an american hero. he was the best and most lethal sniper in the world, saving many soldiers from insurgent attacks. able to hit his targets as far as 21 football fields away. his memorial is today at cowboy stadium, which is to be televised here. my sister and her husband and chad's wife will be there for chris's family, as she was for us. i can't stop thinking about this, i wake up each day, knowing chad is gone, its the same i felt when my husband died. maybe i just need more time and this hate and bitterness will go away. i don't mean to whine, i have to stop dwelling on this, its just so hard. i hope our government will take notice that our vets need more help. but since vietnam, so many have received no help, so why do i think now that things will change.