Eric try not to beat yourself up too much. Things WILL get better! It only takes TIME. Your children are maybe too young to understand but you can tell them in a way that they can try to understand that daddy is not feeling well. They LOVE you Eric and you obviously love them. Thats all that matters for NOW.

Trust "us" survivors, it DOES get better, just let it run it's course and you will regain some of what was lost. It just takes TIME.

I cannot pick up my grandchildren or run with them, but they have learned that when I sit down to crawl on my lap and we have a good snuggle, we sit on the edge of the raised flower bed and look for bugs. and my oldest granddaughter I am teaching to crochet. You will learn to compensate and they will learn to accept what you can do. I am glad that I am here to still enjoy, it may NOT be quite the same, but the LOVE is and I am thankful I am still here to enjoy them. dawghouse

eric,

you are feeling many of the emotional things which i feel. i still look down when i walk( very unladylike) cause i'm scared i'll fall. i still haven't flown. i get panic attacks. etc.... it does get better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my thoughts are with you sweetie!!

kim