Hello Everyone,

It has been only 12 day's in this New Year and I have been up, down and turned around already. But as I have mentioned to others, the only new thing about the New Year is that it's a new year. Same seat, but different toilet. Any who, I am happy about 2016 despite all of my circumstances. I long ago decided to make this year about working on me and allowing myself to heal. I need to learn that it's ok to be me. I think I have always had an issue with this but never really addressed it with myself. I told myself this because of my relationship with my ex. They want to be accepted for who they are. Yet, I am not. I am still the same person when we were in a relationship. You are are living in my home. :pullhair: I can be me in my home. Nothing that I do is new. Nothing that you do is new. We are ex's for a reason and once again you are in my home! How do you act like you don't want my help but do not show any signs of moving out soon? Now I am just waiting patiently for the day when we are on "good" terms again to talk to about this.

For home,it looks like there will be some relief to our leaky roof. We are going to have some type of drainage system so when it rains it will not come inside of our homes. It is a temporary fix but I will take it for now. Now all I need is for my heat to work. I am in a true money pit of a home and cannot wait for the day I move. However, when I do I am hardly sharing my address with anyone. Since I moved into this home I have had someone living with. I need to stop that. :Doh:

For work, I really wish I could take a month off to deal with my mental health/life/etc. Really hoping our office gets that power ball. I also freeze here at work. They management company cannot get the heat right. I remember when I was so stressed with working that I wanted to leave. Now, I welcome work because I can escape my home life. Having two strokes caused that flip. No I don't want to have another one to flip it back.

For my health. It's one thing after another. I am thinking about changing my primary doctor. I had two ultrasounds and when I went to see her for the results she didn't have them. I had sent the results to my phone because I figured she would forget. I was right. When she saw it she asked what are you going to do? Umm isn't that why I am here so you can tell me what I need to do? Once we got on the right track she wants me to see two new doctor's. Great, I just got rid of one, to only add two more. Then my doctor forgot I have an endocrinologist. I think my primary wants to take over her duty. I wish my Endo was my primary. She is excellent but I don't think she wants to go into primary care. :nonono:

For everything else, I am sad that football season is coming to an end. I am sad my Clemson Tigers lost the championship, but I am proud how they fought until the very end. South Carolina had a pretty ruff year in 2015 but Clemson showed their SC Strong last night. Plus lot's of their players are returning. My pro team didn't do that well at all so now I guess I should start getting in to basketball.

Here is to another year, another day, another chance to make the day better then the one before.