my wife of 20 years, has always said throughout our married life to me that she would not waste her life looking after me if anything happened to me. this was based on how my mother had slaved on her own for a large part of the past 18 years with my father whom was a tetraplegic.He died last april, and my mother died last august having suffered dementia for the past 3-4 years.I had a stroke last july.

I get frustrated alot and from time to time blow my cool and swear or throw something-like an empty chocolate powder packet, which happened to have some left in-spraying a bench top.i cleaned it up, but my wife spewed about having to clean it up.i went to cook bacon n eggs for her this morning, but broke the egg too much and in anger chucked the egg down the disposal unit-she took over pushing me out, complaining that she didn't want to clean up any mess, and spewed about how she cannot cope with my grumpiness and behaviour anymore, that her life was over because of me. I have never directed any anger,violence etc towards her or anyone-its all frustration and anger at me and my trying to cope with my predicament.i'm not a violent person-i keep telling her i will get better in time.

We have not had a particularly close relationship-as she builds up and stores resentment against me on anything-my stroke is a massive one that she feels, because her life has been destroyed, she had to give up her job to look adter me,and so i feel trapped..i need to concentrate on recuperating, but i don't feel like doing it now-as i see our marriage is one of inconvenience to her- i know she will leave if and when she see's an opportunity-so why bother-i've lost my business i built up over 20 years,i'll loose my children and wife, i've already lost my father and mother,and i know i won't have any energy after all that to go out into the world.