I am sitting in a diaper.
I have a sinus infection,yeast infection,fungalinfection,and need to use a bipap machine but cannot breathe with my nose right now....
Nutshell of misery is enduring the virus that I am hosting in my body
My body that feels constant pain in my right leg for no reason except just because ...and it is not a belly ache as some mock. NO it is burning at the stake pain, a live amputation. I Do So have a good pain tolerance!!! I have been through labor and childbirth and a C section. Ok boys try being sliced in half to pop out a baby and then being stitched inside stapled outside and then pop a baby aspirin so I can breast feed safely. And foolish women sing the joys of experiencing the natural experiences so I did I until those double peaking contractions that failed to do much.....yes pain and me are old buddies.
This nerve pain is childbirth Godzilla steroid style. It is dental pain wile your finger is stuck in a light socket. Ok....so I am getting an implant to turn it down....does that prove it is a not normal pain yet???
So then my incontinence issue is not a thing except the stroke added more weakness so I wear a leak prevention pad....my ego identity is involved here...
So when I got to snf, they did not offer pads,but had pull ups or diapers. It took no time to love pull ups. Easy convenient yet often leaky but ok I missed undergarments but never had to worry about lost laundry....
But the home does not proedvide pull ups now
I cal)led the ombudsman twice.
She said the home is obligated to provide incontinence supply...and it did. Maybe not what I wanted but they did not have to provide pullups or pads. Not even maxi pads.
So I spoke to my PC, she understood and sent an order to the medical supply Co and......I was happy until it called me saying they do not deliver to nursing homes..they provide stuff. Ok.
So I will.
Does any one get this get me?
Should I be taken at my level
...but they say all the same....
No one comes to change me
See they said i am independent not incontinent.
What dictionary are the using?
I cannot talk anymore to statues.
But I am sitting in a diaper.
I am here.
It falls when I walk.
Comes off when I pull up my pants
It sags to my knees and it is dry.
So they came in and said you need larger ones. I said I am swimming here. They brought bigger ones that are prettier color but when we put it on it was nearly a one piece bathing suit. So back to other one.
I will adjust to this.
As I always do.
But I fight to not be in a wheelchair.
It hurts to walk so bad.
When toilet was out in my room i used commode. Not a bed pan.not a diaper.
So they told me to change myself.
I need coordination.
I cannot do it.
So I will purchase some myself for outings but here I am in diapers.
Why is my identity fighting this.
I am having problems yes.