I want to start by saying I need and I miss my friends and support here at Strokenet. It's been somewhat of a tough year for me I suppose emotionally, mentally and physically. I know I'm not alone when I say "I'm so tired". Man, am I so tired! I'm not even sure what was going on in my life when I was more active in the forums and in my blogs... I'll have to go back and pay attention to when it started to fade to catch up on where I am now (well what's been happening since then). 

No one knows that I have started tons of blogs and it ended up floating into the blog beyond lol. Trying to maintain my thoughts can be pretty hard these days and as many of you know I'm not one for quick updates... More like small book updates. I should really work on that and maybe have better success!

So, this has been a year like no other for me anyways. I realize that our history books will change soon and in 50 years everyone will be talking about when the new virus hit the world. I think back to when my history classes talked about such events in the past before me and I realize how much I never thought I would ever live during "an event". My perspective has really changed since before my stroke and I am less afraid of a lot of things. I'm not sure "afraid" is the correct word. I think maybe I just am more at peace with the finality of life and death. I know, sounds pretty morbid 😁 but I think honestly too... living in less fear is freeing and I enjoy it more.

On the other hand, my cognitive lapses just seem to affect me more and more. That definitely gets in my way! So, I'll put a disclaimer here. I hope this blog is somewhat fluid and others can make sense of it because it is possible I might wander here and there lol. I am about to take a mental break and will start where I left off hopefully. (Literally-a necessary nap is coming). Be back soon!