Hi Alex, you have gone through so much in your young life...very frightening things...

Everyone needs to go through a grieving process. it is natural to miss what is lost if we deny ourselves this process it can sometimes cause more anxiety and fear. Sometimes these flash backs come around the time of year that the "event" happened or something we see or hear can trigger this "flash back"

It might be good to talk to someone, a pshychologist, psychitirst, a clergy man, pastor someone you are comfortable with, it may not mean you need medication just someone to talk to about these fears, and you may be holding anger and resentment inside that you aren't aware of.

Someone with experience can lead you in the right direction to talk about your fears and help you understand and deal with them.

This is a time in your life when "things" are changing, growing up, hormones, more emotional.. and a new school year starting.

I think maybe your mom is right and you need someone to talk to, but if you are not comfortable with the person..let your mom know right away, it may take a couple tries to find the person you can be comfortable talking to ...

Best wishes to you Alex

Bonnie