I just found this board a few weeks ago and I have been doing so much reading. After 2.5 years of living with a stroke survivor I am finding answers to things that many are going through. It has been such a help. I came to this board right after my husband was hospitalized with seizures. I was so angry at the world and I had gotten so depressed. I already take medication for depression. The disappointment I was feeling was not just for Rod my husband but, now I think I had never really grieved the loss I had experienced. I one of those people who push and keep on going. I am still finding it hard. This round has taken a toll on both of us. Maybe my expectations were higher than I thought. I keep telling myself that change is good and stable is good, but deep down I think I was telling myself maybe we can get it all back. I read one of the blogs that mentioned that looking back at who the person was is not a help. I need to start looking at what we have which I am sure is more than some. Life is different now and we just have to go forward. I know what I am feeling right now will pass, I need to go through it. I think my husband is so amazing and has come so far and he always has a smile. Thank you everyone on this board I am glad I found you.